Two weeks later
Andy's POV
It's been one week since I have been out of the hospital and at home. I am healing well, Dr Grey said my lungs are healing and my liver is slowing regenerating. Robert has stayed with me everyday, has taken care of me, taken care of James has done everything right except for one thing... I feel like he doesn't want to touch me, I don't know if he is afraid or something but I can't remember the last time he touched me without handing James to me. Even when we are sleeping he doesn't hug me or kiss my forehead or anything. He has been so distant from me and it's getting me annoyed. He is going to work today for the first time, I know he is going to be so angry I wish that I would have been there to help him or calm him down.
"Are you leaving already? It's only 7:15..." I said sitting on our bed
"Yes." He replied coldly
I couldn't take it anymore, I needed to get out of his presence but I also needed to be in his embrace. So I just left the room and went into James'. Everyday he is doing something new, he has been pulling up himself, taking a few steps while holding in to something, it's just amazing.
"I'm leaving." He said even more coldly
"Ok." I replied matching his tone not even looking up at him
He was about to say something when I got up, leaving James in his crib and went into our bedroom. I heard his footsteps behind me so I knew he was following me...
"Didn't you say you were leaving? Why are you following me?" I said
"Andrea is everything okay?" He asked
"Don't Andrea me!" I said frustrated. He looked at me blankly and shocked
"Ever since the accident you have been treating me like a egg, like if you touch me or say something to me I am going to crack! I am not the one you need to be angry with! I am not the one who ordered me to go in that building alone! Why are you so distant with me? I won't you touch me?!" I yelled
"Because I am afraid! I am afraid I hurt you! I am afraid I lose you! I can't lose you okay! I won't survive! I am supposed to be a man, a father! I am supposed to be strong but every time I am about to touch you I feel like I am going to hurt you! I am angry, I am angry at Bishop, at Luke, at your father but I am mostly angry at myself! I didn't do enough! I wasn't fast enough!" He yelled before breaking down and falling to his knees
I ran up to him and sat on the ground in front of him
"Come here..." I said pulling him into my chest. I have never seen my husband cry this much and it is scaring me a little. After a few minutes in my embrace he calmed down, so I pulled away.
"I want you to look at me closely and do as I say." I said looking at his blood red swollen eyes. He just nodded in response. After releasing his hands I took of my shirt revealing my breast and incision. Taking his hand again I said...
"Run your hand over my incision..."
"Are you sure? It won't hurt you?" He asked panicking
"Yes I am sure, and no it won't hurt..."
He slowly placed his hand on my stomach, taking his finger and tracing the incision wound, going over the discoloration around it and rubbing the bruises.
"Now look at me." I said taking his hands
"I know what happened scared you, it scared me but you know what helped me get through it? Knowing that you'll be waiting outside to hold me, to love me and to take care of me. You cannot blame yourself for what happened, it was out of your control but I want you to know that without you these past two weeks I would have never made it okay. I am alive, I am healing and through all this I am happy because I have you and I have James..." I said caressing his hands
"I'm sorry, my first response was to just bottle up and to shut you out and it shouldn't be that. I am trying to communicate better but when it comes to you, I go crazy... all I want is for you to be happy and alive..."
"I am, I am-" I said cutting him off by kissing him. He quickly kissed me back and pulled me unto his lap. We pulled away after a few minutes and put our foreheads together...
"I am not going in to work today... they can fire me if they want. I can't face Bishop without you I might go crazy..." he said softly with his eyes closed
"Okay love." I said pulling him in the crook of my neck enjoying his embrace
