Robert's POV
The next morning
I woke up to James at the side of me but no sight of Andy... I don't what to think about yesterday, it was confusing. Does Andy love me? Does she love Ryan? Does her father even respect me? What the hell did I do wrong?
I got gently from the bed and made my way downstairs where I was hearing quiet noises.
"Andrea." I said sternly not knowing what else to say
"Morning." She replied softly standing awkwardly playing with her mug
"Andy come sit." I said a little softer. She hesitantly came and sat on the spare bar stool next to me.
"I have three questions for you." I said looking at her in her eye. She nodded not looking at me
"Who do you really love? Me or Ryan? Did your father ever respect me? And what did I do wrong to deserve this kind of pain?"
"Robert..." she started
"Dadaaaaaa." We heard cried from the top of the stair
"J..." I said shooting up from the seat
"What wrong buddy?" I kissed his head picking him up. He immediately put his head on the crook of my neck and cried silently.
"I think he isn't feeling to well, I will take him into work with me." I said annoyed not being able to get answers out of her. She looked at me with sad eyes and just nodded.
I organized James and I and left, leaving her at home. I never did that before but I can't deal with the tension and I do not want to fight in front of James.
Andy's POV
I cannot go on a call with Robert still upset with me, I cannot. I can't imagine what he is feeling but at the same time it has be questioning if he loves me...
"Come in." He said sternly through the door
"Chief." I said not knowing what to say
"Lieutenant." He said looking at me in my eyes.
"Can I speak to you please?" I asked softly
"As your husband or as your battalion chief?"
"Husband..."
"No."
"Robert please. I cannot be on work with you upset with me..." I begged
"James is asleep. Sit." He said and I did what what he said
"I love you. I don't know why you doubt that and maybe that is my fault but I love you... but I also love Ryan..."
"Wow" he whispered before putting his face into his hand
"But not the way you are thinking. The reason Ryan and I never worked out is because I have always seen him as a brother... I've always loved him as a brother. I have never been in love with him..." I said before he took his face out of his hand and looked at me with glassy eyes
"Baby you need to believe me okay, you are my soulmate, you are the love of my life and the one man I will love till the day I die..."
"I don't know what the hell is wrong with my father. I just asked him if he knew how Ryan was going. I never told him to fly to San Diego and tell him I still love him. At this point I don't know if my father even respects me..."
"And you did nothing to deserve what has happened over the past few days. You are amazing, you're an exceptional father, the best husband and the greatest Chief. I am sorry for hurting you, hurting our family, I can't apologize for my father or for Ryan, I won't defend them either but I'm sorry..." I said not leaving any room for him to say anything
"I'm sorry." He said low and broken
"What? For what?" I asked confused
"Instead of dealing with this, I bottled up yet again and made myself feel worse. Andrea you are beautiful and most amazing person in the world and I am afraid to lose you, worse yet lose you to a person who has hurt you so much in the past. I became not jealous but jealous and angry that a man gave up a job and moved across the country for you... I am afraid of losing you. That sounds selfish but I can't..." he said starting to choke at the ending
"How many times do I have to tell you, you are not going to lose me. I want you and you only. I love Robert Sullivan, I love him with all my heart..." I said getting up and making my way around his desk and going to his side
"Well maybe not all my heart..." I said seriously with my hand on his shoulder before he looked at me confused
"I have to leave space for James and our next baby..." I said taking my hand off of his shoulder and unto my belly while tearing up
"What?" He stood up grabbing my waist
