Jacob P.O.V
We been standing outside for the last 15 minutes waiting for who I guessed is our coach name Mr. Carter (you gonna know who is Mr. Carter when he shows up to give you a hint he is a rapper). And I'm sweating like crazy more then i did last night plus at the fact I'm am wearing a black shirt with some faded skinny us and boots I'm sweating like a maniac. I wasn't even sweating this much yesterday when I was hitting it with um...what's her name? Wait hold up let me think... Michele, Brenda, Kelly, Sasha, man what's her name? I know it start with a "B" no a "D" yeah that's it a "D" so is it Destiny, Andrea, Destiny..Damn how did I forget her name that quick when I was just screaming it out yesterday well..maybe I was screaming out another name and she just responded it by doing whatever I say. I can't remember her name so I'm just gonna call her "D" ha that's the name of the last hoe I fucked before coming here...Good times good times. And fucking to me is like a sport and trust me I'm a professional you wanna autograph I'm like a runner back or whatever the fuck you call it. Yeah yeah yeah call me cruel call me a bitch but don't expect me to respond to it. It's not like I'm not used to be getting called names and many other things in the past. I know you probably don't understand me or don't get me trust me I feel the same way about myself
Sometimes. Like I remember going to school and always being the target at getting picked on for who I am and I remember how I use to feel so misunderstood that I just wanted it to end it all. I wanted everything to end I got tired of my fucked up life of mine. Not only just at school I had problems but also at home which I HATE to even call it a home more like a jail house and I gotta say this place here feels more better then what I experienced at home. It was mostly my dad who had issues with me I don't even know why I mean what the fuck did I ever do to him? If me being born was a bad thing and such a horrible mistake then my mom should of just had a fucking abortion but I know my mom wouldn't of done that she loves me too much to ever do such a thing. I just wished that my dad would of feel the same for me he ain't no different from the bullies I use to go school with. He always finding something negative about me and always talking me to me like trash. He never got me or even tried to get to know his son better. He would have a problem by the way I dress and talk and the way I have my hair I remember him telling me that I look like a sissy with this hairstyle. Which I am not and that's what I want to prove to my dad that I am forced to call by law cause really he was never like a dad to me and probably never will be. All I ever wanted as just to prove to him that I am strong, tough and I'm a man and not some scary ass bitch. Even though he treated my mom and I down low I still wanted to make him happy to make our family happy but that's not life . Life is not always ice cream and cake...ice cream can melt and cake can get just get eaten by some fat kid so happiness in life don't last long like my mom use to say good things don't last forever. I know I hadn't had a happy going perfect family that you be seeing on TV and stuff I know I did have a mom that loves me for me and only want the best for me that's why she probably suggest for me getting a therapist and for me coming to this school so I can change and get help. My son of a bitch dad don't even like me for I don't know what reason I just wish I can find out but probably never will. I never will be the son he want me to be and I guess he and I both have to understand and except me for who I am. That's why Ms. Baldwin said I do what I do cause really I'm hurting in the inside and the only way to express myself is by having sex with so many women I do that cause it make me feel like a man that my dad wanted me to be. It makes me feel in control and have the greatest feeling ever while doing it still though I feels empty and hurt but I'm not gonna cry cause big boys don't cry and I'm just gonna suck it up and stop being a scary ass bitch that is what I remember my dad telling me when I
Was learning to ride a bike good times good times (sarcasm) I guess I just will have to find another way that I can cope with instead of having sex with multiple girls.
Oh what the hell am I'm kidding I will NEVER stop that lifestyle.
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