Always Okay | (Adopted By Elizabeth Olsen)

Chapter 60

Word Count: 5281

Alexis's POV

I woke up to a light buzzing noise coming from my nightstand. I hurried to answer the phone, it was probably one of the twins. I asked them to make sure I woke up early enough for Lizzie's surprise.

"Good morning, little one!" Aunt Mary-Kate's voice rang through the phone.

"Hi," I answered in a raspy voice.

"You okay, AC? Your voice sounds a little off?" Aunt Mary-Kate asked.

"Yea-yeah, it's just early," I replied, ignoring the knot twisting in my stomach.

"Okay, well I was just calling to wake you up like asked. So get your booty out of bed, please," Aunt Mary-Kate giggled through the phone.

"Will do," I hummed.

"How was yesterday?" she continued the conversation.

"It was okay, funerals are funerals," I declared.

"Yep, anything else happen yesterday?" she repeated as if she was looking for something certain.

"Nope, it was fine," I answered ready to end the call as I headed towards the kitchen. Even if Lizzie doesn't want to be my mom, I can still make her a nice breakfast for taking care of me. I tossed and turned most of the night, so I still felt tired but it's okay. I'll push through.

"Okay, if you say so," Aunt Mary Kate answered probably hearing the dismissal in my tone of voice.

"I'm gonna go make the food I'll call later," I explained getting ready to hang up on her.

"Sounds good, send pictures please," Aunt Mary Kate requested.

"I'll try, bye."

"Bye, I love you!"

"I love you too!" I smiled tearfully before hanging up. In hindsight, I could've just told her about the article but I'm not ready to come to terms with its truth.

I checked to make sure Lizzie was still asleep before heading into the kitchen. When we're in Atlanta, she normally has that gross green juice for breakfast, but today I'm making her breakfast in bed. I had asked the twins what Lizzie's favorite breakfast was and they said that she'd eat anything for breakfast, so I just had to decide. I spent the better part of my free time at school researching good breakfast options.

I decided on slow-cooked eggs with some vegetables and coffee, plus her signature anchovy toast. Although I have an irrational fear about touching them so this will be interesting.

I got to work on the eggs first before putting the bread in the toaster and starting the coffee machine. I have a lot of experience being very silent so I'm not that surprised Mom didn't wake up. Not Mom, not Mama, just Lizzie, Lizzie not mom. Lizzie doesn't want to be a mom, not now at least. I've been practicing calling her Mom so that when the time comes I don't slip up and make her sad. But now it doesn't matter. She even told the interviewer she wasn't ready and that's something she doesn't normally share.

"....you start to realize how much energy children do require.....that's something I'm not ready to do, that's for sure."  (Olsen, ABCNews May 2014)

It's probably strange that I'm making such a big deal out of mother's day when the person I want to call mom said she doesn't want to be a mom. Maybe that's why Ms. J keeps my birth mom and Lizzie so separate. Even since that unknown number sent me that article I've started to question everything. Why would she say that? Why would she want me back if she doesn't want to be a mom or at least a parent? If she's not my mom, what is she to me?