Always Okay | (Adopted By Elizabeth Olsen)

Chapter 54

Word count: 3725

Alexis's POV

After the LA premiere, Lizzie took a couple of days of work. She said she pushed things around and that it would all be okay. I wasn't entirely convinced because her work is very important, much more than me usually, but I didn't want to argue anymore. I spent the first day in bed, I just didn't feel like getting up. So much information was shouted last night and it just kept replaying in my mind. Over and over and over again until it felt like that was all I could hear.

Lizzie didn't push me either, she just kept telling me 'we'll go at your pace.' She brought me all my meals in bed, even though I didn't eat much. I kept trying to sleep off the emotional drain but like always sleep never comes easily and when it does it's rarely peaceful. The day passed by quickly for me but I'm assuming it was slow for Lizzie who mentioned at one point that she had to get up to make dinner when I thought that we had just finished lunch. We apparently laid in bed for four hours just staring at the ceiling, no tv or talking or anything.

It's was my fault that she had to stay for so long instead of doing something more useful. During lunch I had another breakdown about eating like always, it just felt like food could only make my day worse. Sometimes I think about is what my life would be like if I was normal, and I was never kidnapped. But I guess it's stupid to dwell on the past based on what-ifs. All I remember from my most recent panic attack was asking her, c-can y-you please just hold me?" "You're okay, it's going to be okay," Lizzie cooed in my ear as I tightly held onto her shirt trying to be as close to her as possible.

Day two wasn't more exciting but Lizzie convinced me to go on a drive with her to the beach after we spent the day reading both her script and some books. It was late at night, well maybe it was early in the morning but I couldn't tell the difference. We just sat on the beach and watched the sunrise.

"Alexis, I know you're not ready to talk about what happened, but I want you to know that I'm here for when you are."

"I know."

"Alexis, my mother said some horrible things, some of them lies and some of it was, unfortunately, the truth, but nothing about what she did or did not say changes how much I love you. You're always going to be my daughter regardless of what she says about that. And your mother, Kayli loved you just as much. She made some mistakes, some fatal mistakes, even with you but she loved you dearly."

"What really happened with my mother and me?"

"I promise I'll tell you, but on another day. You have enough going on and we've got a lot of packing to do."

"Okay, but Lizzie?"

"Mmmh?"

"I wanna know everything this time."

"And you will, I promise." She agreed before pulling me into her side.

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After Lizzie's three-day hiatus, we headed to New York for another screening of Lizzie's avenger movie. This time I stayed with my aunts and surprisingly nothing bad happened. No one came to yell at us, I ate most of my dinner, and we watched a funny movie. The only problem was I didn't go to sleep when I was supposed to and Lizzie wasn't as happy about that. I didn't want to sleep without her though, so I pushed myself to stay up. She makes me feel the safest and lately I haven't wanted to be anywhere but with her, especially at night. 

Then after New York, we flew to Atlanta for Lizzie's next movie. We'll be here until mid-June, minus a few impromptu weekend trips. I'm even supposed to start in-person school here, with real kids and everything. That's a terrifying thought for me, so I try my best to not dwell on it but I know the dates are rapidly approaching.