Stay with Me [namkook]

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RM nodded. "Sure, go ahead." He said softly, moving away so I could go up to the front of the church.

I was nervous, but I felt like I needed to say something, so maybe some of this guilt could go away.

"All of you may not know me and that's okay, I just need to say something so...so maybe some of this guilt I have could go away." I said, taking a deep breath.

"I haven't known Jin very long, it's...kind of a long and not-so-great story on how we met, but for as long as I've known him, he was nice." I said, taking another deep breath, then looked back at the closed casket, tears running down my face before I looked back at everyone. "Jin died so I could live and...I still feel this guilt inside me because of that." I said, wiping my eyes. "I hope one day, I'll wake up and won't feel this guilt. I hope one day, I'll see him as a hero instead of someone who died in such a horrible way. I hope...I-I hope wherever he is now, he's happy...and in peace." I finished, looking down at my feet.

I suddenly heard someone start clapping, I looked up and saw it was RM. Soon after, everyone started clapping. I bowed a little and walked over to where I was sitting before. Mochi and J-Hope gave me a hug and told me I did great, which made me smile a tiny bit.

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After the funeral, we went to this really nice restaurant, I would've never known that this place was his favorite restaurant, but I guess you can't always judge a book by its cover.

Not too many people showed up, only about twenty-five or thirty of the sixty-something people came to the restaurant.

I sat alone at one of the tables, nibbling on my food as I watched everyone talk and interact with each other.

I must've been very distracted by my thoughts, because I didn't notice that RM sat next to me until he was tapping me on my shoulder, making me jump a bit.

"Is everything okay?" He asked.

"Yeah, I'm just...not very hungry."

He nodded. "That's okay." He said before he started rubbing my back. "I'll bring some food home for you, just in case you get hungry."

I nodded. "Thank you."

He nodded and held my hand gently. "I'm gonna fix this, I promise. You'll never have to worry about that evil bastard again." He said.

I just nodded, not wanting to think about that.

"We'll leave in a little bit, okay?"

I nodded. "Okay." I said before looking down at my half eaten food.

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A few hours later, it was time for us to leave. The guys said goodbye to their friends and we went back home.

Once we were home, I went straight to my room, just wanting a moment to myself. I changed into a t-shirt and shorts and laid on the bed, looking up at the ceiling.

How did I get myself into this situation? Oh yeah, that's right, not minding my own business.

I should've just walked away and just went the other way home, then maybe I wouldn't have gotten kidnapped and then have to experience someone's head being blown off.

The thought of escaping reappeared in my head, but as quickly as the thought came to mind, it quickly vanished.

Yes, these guys are bad, really bad, but if I put that to the side, they're human too.

The emotion they showed when they lost their friend, that was real. Real tears, real cries, real screams of sadness and devastation. And because of that, I can't help but to feel bad and in a way, be there for them.

Yes, I would rather be home, my home, but somewhere in my heart is telling me to stay, stay and help them heal from this.

I was snapped out of my thoughts when I heard a knock on my door. I sat up and looked at the door, ruffling my hair a little.

"Come in."

I saw the door open, RM walking inside and shutting the door behind him. He walked over and sat next to me on the bed, looking at me as he put his hand on my lower back.

"How are you feeling?"

"Okay I guess."

He nodded. "I just wanted to check on you before I went to bed."

I nodded. "Thanks." I said softly, looking down at my lap for a moment, then looked back at him. "What do you plan on doing to him?"

"To who?"

"The person who...killed Jin."

RM was silent for a moment, then looked over at the window that was across the room. "It's best that you don't know, you've already seen and heard too much, I don't want you to get involved in anything else." He said to me.

"I won't get involved, I just...want to know." I said.

He ran his fingers in my hair, moving some of it out of my eyes. "All you need to know is that he won't be a problem anymore when I'm finished with him." He said before pecking a kiss on my forehead. "I don't want you to worry about that anymore, I'm gonna take care of it, even if it's the last thing I do." He added.

I nodded and looked down at my lap. "Okay."

"If you need anything, I'll be in my bedroom, you know where it is." He said before getting up from the bed and walking over to the door.

"Goodnight, Jungkook."

I nodded. "Goodnight, RM."

He opened the door and left, shitting the door behind him.

I sighed and laid down, getting as comfortable as I possibly can before closing my eyes to try and get some sleep. After awhile of tossing and turning, I ended up falling asleep, hugging one of the pillows on the bed for some comfort.

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Hey everyone!! I'm sorry this took so long to write. To be honest, I kind of forgot what I wanted to do with this story, but no worries, I'll think of something, I always do :D

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-Apryle❤️