john propaganda (my lock screen)
there's an animated version too (and a blank that i'll put at the end of the chapter) ( WATTPAD KILLS THE VIBRANCY OF MY COLOURS GOD)
Dearest,
Why did my mom kill herself?
I am never going to know, am I?
She didn't even leave anything behind, except 5 kids and an alcoholic.
Actually, my dad wants an alcoholic till after. My dad was pretty alright you know. Before.
Now that's all changed.
And I'm never going to know why she left us.
And that sucks ass.
I want to suck ass.
I suppose even though you can consent at 16 legally, not many people actually lose their virginity at 16. I mean, a few people lose it younger, but majority of people lose it a lot older.
So having the mind set that I'm not going to be a virgin for much longer isn't very realistic is it?
I mean, I have a boyfriend.
Oh my god I have a boyfriend. Cannot get over that.
But it's only been official for a week. It feels longer, right?
We did kiss before.
So it's not like we're gonna have sex now. I think. I don't know how relationships work exactly.
All I know is that I have the hottest boyfriend around.
He's so hot that girls actually go after him. You'll never guess who.
That's right you didn't.
The fucking Schuylers.
Well, the straight ones.
I know this because Peggy came absolutely sprinting up to me at school, so fast I thought she would have knocked me over, but she stopped in time. "Oh my god John you'll never guess what- Hey what happened to your hand?" She panted, doubling over slightly.
"Oh, nothing much don't worry about it." I said smoothly. "What's up?"
"My sisters want to fuck your boyfriend." She panted.
I nearly choked on the air I was breathing. "You fucking what."
"I heard them talking about it, they're seriously into him, they think he's hot as fuck. And they're like disgustingly horny for him."
"I get he's handsome but he's mine! They cant have him." I crossed my arms stubbornly. No they fucking won't. He's mine. Oh my god what if Alex cheats on me with them.
Is he kinky enough for both?
STOP THINKING ABOUT IT.
"Exactly, it's gross. They have a full on love rivalry with him. Over a man!" She exclaimed, still catching her breath.
"Over my man." I frowned.
"Over your man!" She pointed out. "Well, it's not like they know. You're not official kinda. You haven't told people. And that's fucking smart."
At that point some asshole who I don't even know by the way, people just do it, walked past and said (to me probably), "Perv."
And Peggy yelled. "I'm gay!" at the same time I yelled "Creep." And I was fully intent on walking after him and beating him to a bloody pulp but unfortunately Peggy held me back effectively.
