Dearest,
Holy crap.
Holy fuck.
Jesus H Fuck.
I can't.
I'm like shaking. No way this happened. No way this is happening.
Oh my god I can't breathe I'm freaking out.
I'm so happy right now!
I have to tell you the story, no spoilers.
So remember how I told you about this new kid? Francis? The creepy one who makes me question whether or not I know any social cues what so ever?
He got creepier.
I know.
I didn't think it was possible.
For once this wasn't at lunch, it was between classes. I know right, breaking the cycle.
So anyway, this man fully decides to come out of nowhere and pin me against a locker. Like. Ok?
"Uh, hi?" I said kind of awkwardly. I had no idea what's happening. This has never happened before.
"God you're even hotter up close."
"What."
I know. I know.
It's so weird.
"Oh come on. Don't you want me?" He smirked at me, and my heart started to race.
What the fuck?
"Not really, no thanks." I mumbled, trying to look away, but he grabbed my chin and made me look at him.
"Oh please, I've seen the way you smile at me. You wanna smile again for me pretty boy?"
Aw fuck.
Why do I always get into trouble doing things back that I didn't know how to react to?
"Hey, I'm sorry but I'm not really interested..." I mumbled, trying subtly to pull out of his grip.
"What, why, do you have a boyfriend or something?" He asked, tilting his head.
"Uh yeah, he does." Alex said, and I hadn't even seen him walk up to us. But let me tell you, the wave of relief I felt was insane.
Francis actually steps away from me, which I'm surprised at but never mind.
He laughed, weirdly, "Aha, sorry bud, didn't realise I was hitting on your man." He stepped further away, and I breathed out. "Call me when you guys break up." He winked at me.
"No thanks." I replied after him as he leaves.
I looked over at Alex, and he smiled at me, and we both laugh nervously. I love the way he smiles, I just love it.
"Oh my god I was so scared. Thanks for pretending to be my boyfriend." I smiled at him.
"I wasn't pretending." Is all he said, and my heart fucking stopped.
What.
What.
Did I fuck up?
Oh fuck.
He looked at me all sexy like, and bit his lip, before saying, "John whatever your middle name is Laurens, would you maybe, please, wanna be my boyfriend?"
HOLY SHIT.
I KNOW RIGHT.
I still can't believe this happened. Like what the fuck. How the fuck.
I got asked out. By a boy, who's pretty and so far has no red flags. Who is actually sweet and cares about me. I'm losing my mind.
"Oh my god are you serious?" I asked and he nodded. I grabbed his face and kissed him. "Yes. Please." I laughed, and he smiled at me. He's so fucking handsome.
But then the bell went off and well that's just my fucking luck, ain't it?
We didn't see each other again that day, but I gave him my number and he texted me. He's so sweet.
I can't believe it happened. I have a boyfriend.
Respectfully,
Jacky
character development is the way john starts to actually care abt his diary over time
