Dearest,
OH MY GOD.
OH MY GOD.
DEAREST.
IT HAPPENED.
JUST AS THE GODS FORETOLD.
IM GONNA DIE.
IT FINALLY HAPPENED.
ILL NEVER BE INSECURE AGAIN.
Now, I don't know if I can count myself as a not virgin, since the whole concept of virginity is stupid and a social construct and not an actual thing and is defined mostly by male penetration, BUT ITS GOOD ENOUGH.
Holy shit.
It was as good as I thought it was going it be.
No, better than I thought it was going to be.
THERE WAS DICK TOUCHING DEAREST, YOU HEARD ME.
Holy fuck his dick is big.
I was right.
Humongous. Massive. Large. The perfect size to get shoved up my ass.
Maybe I'm getting ahead of myself here.
No I'm not, he should put his dick in my ass. Repeatedly.
Please can he put his dick up my ass. Right now.
But there was dick touching dearest.
His massive schlong was on mine.
It was amazing. So good. I know you'll have no idea since you're a diary and don't have a gender because you're paper in a bundle and also don't have a biological sex and therefor no dick but whoa. Trust me, it was so good.
I guess I'm obliged to tell you the story by now.
Just kidding Id tell you anyway.
You're my best friend dearest, don't forget.
So we woke up, and of course we were making out. There is no foreplay here dearest, I'm getting straight into the story.
And I was sat on his lap, and we were making out and it was getting kind of heated, and I was definitely getting hard so I like pulled away from him and was going to get off his lap before he could notice.
But then, oh then, he leaned in closer to me and whispered, "How many times are you just going to pretend you're not hard?"
And my brain kinda made the same noise a computer from 2007 makes when you ask it to do too many things at once.
And I can't even remember what I said, probably something like a keyboard smash put into words because goddamn he was so hot right then, like I'm pretty sure my dick became like 12 time as hard as it was then just from his whispering that. Like it was that hot. Incredibly sexy.
Words can't describe.
THEN, oh and then dearest, to like punctuate the point of his sentence, he ran his hand over my bulge just soft enough for it to be subtle, but enough for me to properly shudder at just the touch.
And that (I think) is where I lost all self control.
The rest seems like a blur.
I know he kept palming me through my jeans, whispering softly to me while I barely held back moans "Did you really think I didn't notice? All the times we made out and your dick pressed against mine? All the times you got so horny but never said anything."
He suddenly grabbed my dick, softly yet still enough for me to let out a soft moan. "Can I, pretty boy?"
I mean of course I let him. Him saying pretty boy made my dick so hard it would have broken my zipper if he hadn't.
My dick had so much blood in it at that point I thought it would explode.
Dearest, my dearest dearest, you will never ever have any idea how fucking amazing and just relieving it feels to have someone else touch your dick.
Like just whoa.
I'm such a virgin OH MY FUCKING GOD.
But actually.
Holy actual fucking shit.
I mean I had thought about it.
But my poor virgin weezer brain could not even fathom a pretty boy's hand getting remotely close to my cock.
And then, like my mind exploded.
It was just that fucking good istg.
"Aw are you this hard for me?" He grinned all hot and dom like, his fingers just lightly brushing over it enough for me to whine and let my head fall on his shoulder.
He laughed softly under his breath, and kissed my neck (I actually could have cum then) and THEN???
HE TOOK OUT HIS OWN DICK AND HE WAS JUST AS HARD???
AND THEN MY DICK TOUCHED HIS AS HE HELD THEM IN ONE HAND???
AND JERKED US OFF TOGETHER???
It was the best feeling of my life, I swear on my mothers grave.
I ended up holding onto him, wrapping my arms around him and I couldn't stop myself from moaning at every movement, which is stupid to say cause I hardly ever moan.
But fuck was it good.
It was better than good.
It was so good that there is no word for how fucking amazing it was so it goes back to being good.
Holy shit dearest.
It happened.
I am one step closer to losing my virginity.
I'm amazing.
ALSO I WAS RIGHT, OKAY?
He did say "Are you cumming pretty boy?"
I am fucking amazing. I want to ride this high forever.
You ever dearest husband,
John Laurens
