Dearest,
HOLY SHIT IM NOT A VIRGIN ANYMORE.
HOLY FUCK.
I HAD SEX.
I GOT FUCKED.
FINALLY!
I've been dreaming about this day for 4 years and it finally happened.
And it was just as good as I expected.
I cant even begin to explain sex to you because you're a book but holy shit.
It's amazing.
Sex is so good.
Maybe I was just born to be a bottom. Like I was born to take it up the ass.
But man, I might as well throw away all my dildos because nothing compares to a real dick.
I mean I won't.
But it was so perfect.
For once it felt like my life was a movie.
Everything seems to go wrong with me but this went right.
It was just so amazing.
I don't think I ever want to leave Alex's arms now. Perfect mix of just fucking my brains out and love. I am so in love dearest.
Just for once everything went right.
I'm still scared that he's gonna like die on me on something.
But it was all fine.
Everything just went right.
I mean I was hella nervous, but Alex just makes everything better.
I swear sometimes I wanna stay with this boy forever.
Maybe I do.
Is that such a bad thing?
I mean is it right to stay forever with the guy who took your virginity, your first love? What if he's not my soulmate?
Nah I'm sure he is.
I'm just lucky for once.
Alex brought all the good things in my life.
If I didn't have him I wouldn't have friends or anything.
Actually I'd probably be dead.
And that's scary.
He saved my life.
Maybe I should tell him that one day.
Maybe he's already guessed from how fucked up I am.
I'll tell him when we're old one day.
If we grow old together.
Oh god I hope we do.
Maybe I'm getting a little carried away here.
All we did was have sex.
But dearest, it was goooodddd sex. 10/10.
But I'm fucking tired as fuck.
And it's really late at night because we did not just go one round.
Talk to you in the morning.
Hugs and kisses and boners,
Jackie
