Dearest,
I sucked dick today.
I like getting my dick sucked more than I like sucking dick.
That sounds selfish doesn't it.
But it's the truth.
To be honest I don't think I'm actually good at sucking dick, I definitely have no technique and I'm so scared of throwing up.
But Alex really liked it.
Don't ask how we got in this situation (it's not really a question you ask, how did you end up sucking your boyfriend dick? You can ask how did your boyfriend end up sucking your dick? That's another story.), but halfway through I looked up at him, worried I wasn't doing a good job.
But he actually looked like he was gonna cum.
Trust me I've seen that face before.
"Wha... Why did you stop?" He asks.
"Was I really doing that good of a job?"
"You're so hot."
I raise an eyebrow at him.
"John it's your first time it's not gonna be perfect." He grabs my collar and pulled me up so that his face is close to mine. "But fuck...the guy I love and think is the hottest person I've ever seen, on his knees sucking my dick is hot as fuck. It doesn't matter if you're good or not."
And then he kissed me.
And we made out and he came and then he sucked my dick.
I wonder if we should fuck. I'm completely comfortable with him.
But still.
He's never actually seen my body.
I wonder why I'm still sad.
I have friends.
I have the perfect boyfriend.
I haven't been seriously bullied in ages.
So why am I still not happy?
What more do I need?
I probably need to be sanctioned off again but whatever.
See ya tomorrow dearest,
Johnny
