Dearest,
Ok so following up, he woke up, and then we cuddled.
And then we had a stupid midnight feast and giggled the whole time like school children.
Then we finally got under the covers and went to sleep.
Let me tell you there is no better feeling than waking up in his arms.
Time with him feels like a dream.
All of it feels like some dumb rom com and I love it. I love all of it.
I love him. I think.
I'm pretty sure.
It's hard to say.
I can think it, but saying it out loud sounds so hard.
I don't know if I could.
Incase you're wondering, Alex's bed is up against a wall and the last time I slept on the wall side, and this time he insisted I sleep on that side too. I asked why and he said "It's your side." and oh my god my heart.
I may die simply from sweetness alone.
He's so adorable.
And god when he's sleepy he's just so hot and cute, I cant pick one. He's both.
He's everything.
I'm so happy right now, it's completely throwing me off guard.
I don't think I've ever felt this happy before.
We kissed/half made out when we woke up. Like, I don't know if you could count it as making out because it was super sleepy and gentle.
I hope this is what married life is like. I hope I have a good marriage where we're both actually happy.
I want to be happy when I'm older.
I think I want to be with Alex when I'm older.
All yours,
Jackie
