Random OneShots

Not Well

By: Ssssbeautie0fanficnsss on Ao3

Malec

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Magnus closed the door behind himself sighing, he hated that client. Always talking for hours on end ending up spending hours in his house stuck with that client, when he could be cuddling with his boyfriend who had a day off.

They gave Alec a day off, because of his mental health ever since Max died he's been putting himself in dangerous situation not caring about his own life. The Clave -for the first time- had good judgement and let him have a day off.

Magnus started walking over to his bedroom were Alec was probably sleeping or just thinking staring at the ceiling. He started doing that a lot actually. He got closer to the door and it felt too quiet, that's when he heard what seemed like muffled sobs. He slowly opened the door to not startle the -probably- crying man. What he saw was way worse than what he had expected; Alec had his hair all messy covering his eyes, his cheeks were teared stained, his lips were quivering and bleeding a little. His eyes trailed off from his face to his lovers hand and his hearth dropped to the pit of his stomach.

Alec had a blade covered in his own blood.

His eyes than looked at his wrist and that's when he saw them, multiple cuts of different sizes some deeper than others. They all seemed so fresh.

Magnus slowly made his way to Alec who was sitting in criss cross on the bed just as he looked up. More tears spilled from his eyes as he started speaking, "I'm s-sorry, M-Magnus. I'm sorry I- please d-don't be m-mad. Please." Alec's voice was trembling at each words he would say.

Magnus sat next to Alec and gently took the blade out of his hand, Alec was resisting, but eventually Magnus managed to take it and placed it on the table next to the bed before wrapping his arms around Alec letting him sob in his shoulder. "It's okay, I'm not mad. You're going to be okay, Alexander," Magnus spoke in a comforting voice.

Alec was repeating 'I'm sorry' over and over again the guilt just building up in his chest. The guilt of not being able to control himself, the guilt of Max's death, the guilt of not have restrained himself from cutting himself to a point that he couldn't even leave the room to go and lock himself in the bathroom, no. He did it in the room knowing full well that Magnus client would leave soon. He was just selfish.

Couldn't even leave the room?

He probably hates you now!

He wouldn't want a boyfriend that hurts himself, because he can't control his little pathetic emotions.

It's your fault, your fault, your fault!

Alec was brought out of his toughs as he felt Magnus shift slightly trying to see Alec's face. "Alexander, look at me," Magnus said trying to lift Alec's face up.

Alec slowly and hesitantly looked up to meet with Magnus's eyes. Magnus looked carefully at Alec's eyes, it's like if they had lost any trace of life. he softly wiped the tears that have spilled from Alec's eyes before speaking, "I am not mad. Nothing is wrong with you. It was not your fault. And even if right now things are hard, just remember that I'm here and I'll be here with you every step of the way whether it's for talking, if you just want a shoulder to cry on or if it's just want to be hold. I will always be here for you no matter what. I love you."

He placed a small kiss on Alec's lips. When they pulled away Alec started talking, "t-thank you, Magnus. I love you."

Magnus gave him a small smile before gently taking Alec's wrist in his hand. "Darling can I heal your cuts," Magnus asked. Alec immediately shook his head.