Random OneShots

Talk to me pt.2

By: EverythingButColdFire on Ao3

Wolfstar

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Sirius walked into his apartment to see Remus sprawled on the couch, stirring slightly.

"Shit, sorry, did I wake you up?" Sirius asked.

Remus threw him an apologetic smile, "You did, but that's alright, I didn't mean to pass out on the couch."

"It happens to the best of us," Sirius said.

"Usually not at 8pm on a Saturday," Remus chuckled.

Remus dragged himself off the couch and walked into his room. Sirius tried not to stare but failed miserably, his eyes drawn from the way his faded jumper hung off his shoulders to his hand raking through his disheveled hair. He swallowed thickly.

His crush had been a gradual thing. He had been mildly interested for a while, in a vague we're so good together as friends and roommates maybe it would be good if we dated sort of way. Remus was just...the best. So kind and thoughtful and just...good. He had always been there for him. He wasn't a perfect person, he was a chronic overthinker, he tended to be closed off, and was sometimes a bit too pragmatic (in Sirius's opinion anyways). But Sirius was none of those things and he was immensely grateful to be so close to someone like that, who was always there to make him slow down and think things through. Who wasn't afraid to tell him when he was being reckless. Remus really did bring out the best in him.

On more than one occasion over the years, Sirius found himself thinking about Remus, before sighing internally with a if only he wasn't straight, and putting a stop to that line of thinking immediately. But the situation had really come to a head a few weeks prior when Sirius had come down with the flu and Remus had taken care of him. Somewhere between picking him up off the bathroom floor and feeding him ice cream, something snapped in Sirius's mind and all he could think was, "I want to spend the rest of my life with you." Ok so maybe crush wasn't the best word to describe that feeling.

He'd always assumed Remus was straight, thus completely unattainable. He did not fuck around with straight men and it was usually easy for him to get over that type of crush if there was no chance of anything happening. But...was Remus straight?

He had never had a girlfriend, surely Sirius would know about it if he had, they'd only been close friends for the last decade or so. He couldn't think of a single instance where Remus had mentioned he found a woman attractive. Or anyone attractive, as far as he could remember.

Sirius never really talked about dating and relationships and all that shit with Remus. Well, he had talked about his love life at Remus sometimes, but Remus never really seemed interested or said anything of consequence. Which he actually found a bit refreshing. With some of his other friends, sometimes it seemed like fucking was all they cared about. But he just could not tell if Remus fancied men. Not for lack of trying though. Sirius had tried to corner him with the good old, "Who's your celebrity crush?" but Remus had hummed and hawed for a full minute before saying he didn't have an answer and would think about it and respond in 3 - 5 business days. He didn't know what to make of that.

But he was sure - well, definitely not sure - but he at least suspected Remus might be into him. It could have been wishful thinking, but lately Sirius was sure he had caught him staring with a suspiciously longing expression. And he could have sworn he remembered Remus blushing furiously as he draped a towel over his forehead when he was sick, but he had been so delirious, he honestly couldn't be sure of anything that happened during those days.

He thought that maybe if he just pushed Remus in the right way, he would break and reveal something. Sirius thought he'd come up with a foolproof plan by suggesting a James Bond movie marathon a couple weeks back. Straight men thought Bond girls were hot, right? Wasn't that the whole point of Bond girls, historically speaking? But when Eva Green came on screen in Casino Royale and Sirius pointedly said, "Wow, she's stunning," Remus just hummed in agreement and said "Vesper Lynd is such a Bond girl name." And he didn't react at all when Daniel Craig was in that little blue swimsuit.