Random OneShots

Cut

By: Obsticaltities on Ao3

Boris x Theodore

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Boris was pale and skinny. His skin wrapped tightly around his bones in a way that looked sickly. Theo didn't like how anorexic he looked even though he knew that it was just how his body was made.

What he didn't like looking at was all his self harm scars that never seemed to fade.Boris never hid them; he openly flaunted them by wearing short sleeves. Boris didn't care about weather or not people could see, it was in the past and the markings didn't define who he was anymore, it marked someone who was unstable and Boris was now a fully functioning individual.

Well for the most part.

Boris sat alone on his bathroom floor. His messy curly black hair falling over his face and his wrist cut up to his elbow. He sat there as blood ran down his arm to the new puddle on the floor. His eyes dull and his mind fuzzy. He had been going in and out of consciousness for and hour and all he wanted was his boyfriend.

Theo was at home reading, unaware of anything that was happening in Boris' bathroom.He licked his finger to flip the page as he continued reading his book. The sound of his phone startled him. He grabbed his phone setting his book down.

An incoming call from Boris made him smile and answer the phone on a cheery tone."Baby, hi!"

Theo said in excitement and heard Boris give a little chuckle on the other side.

Boris turned off the faucet and used a towel to gently clean his wounds, "Sweet boy, how are you doing?" He asked him a little bit over a whisper.

"I'm doing good, how are you doing? You sound a little sad, everything okay?" Theo asked and Boris rubbed his red eyes.

"Can you come over?" Boris followed up with a question putting the phone on speaker and on the counter. He looked at himself in the mirror fixing up his hair and tucking it behind his ears. He opened one of the drawers getting out some bandages.

"Yeah I can, are you okay?" Theo sat up getting worried. He grabbed his shoes and tried the laces, waiting for Boris to give him an answer.

"Just come over." Boris said with a sigh becoming frustrated. He didn't want to be alone, he just wanted to be with Theo. He was tired of waiting for him.

Theo felt queasy getting up and proceeding to walk to Boris' house. "I'll be there soon."

Boris then hung up the phone and began wrapping up his arms. He didn't want Theo to see how unstable he was and he didn't want to make Theo upset by telling him what he did.He didn't regret cutting though. At least not at time.

We walked into his bedroom quickly changing his short sleeve into a long sleeve red sweatshirt. He made his way down the stairs to wait for his boyfriend. Not long after he reached the last step, he heard the sound of faint knocking. He walked over and unlocked the door.

He opened it to see Theo panting."I ran here." Theo said quickly between his breathes.

Boris moved out of the way and let Theo walk in. Boris pressed his finger to his lips and shushed him. Theo nodded as the two walked up to Boris' room. Boris noticed how worried Theo looked. It broke his heart to know how much trouble he often caused him.

Once the two were inside Boris shut the door and span around to embrace Theo. Theo hugged him back tighter. "I'm sorry Potter." Boris bit his lower lip.

He didn't want to do this. He knew he couldn't hide anything from the smaller boy. Especially when he looked up at him with so much love and compassion in his eyes. He didn't want to lie to him. He just couldn't.The regret was starting to wash over him. He shouldn't have given into his temptations, he shouldn't have let his emotions take control of his morals. He hugged Theo tighter nearly suffocating him.

"Don't be loud. My father doesn't know you're here." Boris said his voice cracking.

Theo knew something was up. He withdrew from the hug and put his hands on Boris' cheeks."What's the matter, baby?" Theo asked sweetly.

Boris let his eyes get watery, "I did something I shouldn't have Potter, I'm so sorry.."

Boris breathed in sharply rolling up his sleeve up revealing a bandage covered in his blood.Theo grew anxious, he felt like he was about to throw up. He stumbled and let go of Boris' face. He placed his hands on Boris' and the other one on his elbow. He looked him up and down frantically and started to tear up as well.

"What the fuck were you thinking!" Theo whisper yelled. He had to cover his mouth with one hand to stop himself from puking. Boris started to cry. He whimpered and wiped his tears with his other hand."I-I'm sorry Potter!" Boris said between cries.

Theo took a deep breath to compose himself. "What did this solve? You promised me you'd never do this again! You promised!" Theo spoke lowly to reduce his voice cracking.

Boris couldn't speak he felt awful. He was so disappointed in himself he couldn't even look at Theo. Theo let it go and hugged Boris tightly. He wanted to kiss him but he was to short to reach his lips.

"Boris, listen to me okay, you can't do that every time you feel sad. What made you do that?" He asked and Boris let out a shaky whimper, "m-my mother." Boris croaked and Theo immediately sympathized him.

He rubbed his back comfortingly and shushed him."I know how hard it is. I've been through it, but Boris, don't do that. It's not a good way to deal with all your emotional baggage." Theo replied softly. Boris broke the hug and nodded. He wasn't crying, he didn't feel like it anymore. He already cried to much that afternoon anyways. Theo got on his tip toes and pulled him down to meet him in for a kiss.

"I can't make the hurt go away, baby. But your not alone anymore okay." Theo said looking into Boris' eyes. Theo thought his eyes looked to beautiful he could just get lost in them.

Boris finally smiled. "Thank you baby." He sniffled and walked towards the tv turning it on. He looked over his shoulder to see Theo giving a weak smile, Theo knew exactly what would make Boris feel better. "Movie and cuddles?"

Boris lit up, "Don't make me wait, Potter." He said and made his was over to the bed laying down. Theo walked to the bed and climbed on top of Boris and kissed him gently. He then laid on him, resting his head on his collar bones. He wrapped his arms around Boris who in return wrapped his arms tighter around the smaller boy.

The boys laid in silence as they watched the movie until Theo spoke up, "Don't ever do that to me again. I can't lose any more people."

Boris nodded kissing Theo on the top of his head. In truth he wasn't feeling any better about the situation but knowing that Theo was with him and that he cared a lot about his wellbeing let him feel comfortable and in the moment happy.

"Okay."