Zayn POV
Liam and I joined the rest of the group at the table and no one questioned our whereabouts.
“All good?” Sadie asked me
“All good.” I responded, not making eye contact. This is going to sound bad but, everything she was doing lately was annoying to me. She would slurp through a straw or laugh at a text that wasn’t from me or even just ask me something like ‘all good?’ and I would just get aggravated. I’m not going to pretend that I don’t know why this is. I know she’s been talking a lot to Cadence. It really doesn’t help that she’s sleeping 15 feet away from him every night in the next room either. I try to listen to Kayleigh and Liam and let them tell me about how they are a hot mess and there’s nothing I have to worry about because they are so dramatic, but that’s what worries me. The drama. I know drama, believe me. I’ve been dating Sadie for about 2 months now and anyone who’s been around her for more than a week can tell you I might as well be a damn drama expert. The things that I used to find endearing, like taking an extra half hour to leave, so her nails could dry or not making out because her hair had to look good for that night, were now driving me nuts. It was scaring me honestly. I wrapped my arms around her, I was mentally grasping at the ties we had left. She was starting to lose it with me too. The other day, we were making out at my house and I pulled her hair on accident and she kind of blew up at me. That led into a fight about how I’m not considerate and how I thought she was overreacting. You see? Its these little fights that we never used to have that are all of the sudden springing up out of nowhere, that made me want to pledge my undying love to her at the moments we were okay. I kissed the top of her head and breathed in the smell of her hairspray left over from last night. She kissed the palm of my hand and stroked my thumb. I was having one of those moments. I don’t really know how to describe it. It’s like I’m trying to save us. I know we’ll be fighting about something in the next few hours or so, so before we do, I just want to be with her.
“Come with me…” I whispered to her, pulling her along, and up to Niall’s room.
“I missed you.” She said as soon as we were alone. She wrapped her arms around me and tucked her head under my chin. I rested my head on hers. We stayed like this for a full minute before either of us spoke and when we did, it was simultaneous.
“I’m sorry” we both said. We chuckled.
“I’m sorry.” I said again. “Things have felt weird lately and I hate it.”
“Me too. Let’s stop doing that.” She kissed my chin. I looked at her and almost felt like I wanted to cry, because I was still feeling it. The drowning feeling. I couldn’t get past the thought that we couldn’t get past the fighting. I tried to distract myself from my thoughts….
“Sadie…” I whispered. I buried my head into the space behind her ear. I slowly let my lips make shapes on her neck and her head lolled back. I tenderly bit her earlobe, making her move her hands up to my chest. This wasn’t working. I decided on another route. I grabbed her butt with both hands and crashed my lips against hers, sucking on her bottom lip. As I pulled away quickly for a breather, she muttered my name. Our lips met again and I ran my fingers though her hair. Still wasn’t working. I was pouring my emotions into these kisses and touches and caresses and I just couldn’t feel anything back. I pulled away and lead her to the bed. I held her in my arms and decided, yet again, on another route of distraction…this time something she would be, no doubt, very interested in…
“So I have some gossip.” I started
“Do you?” she asked, intrigued. I knew it.
“Yep. You know earlier, after I accidently cut Louis face?”
“Mhm”
“Well, I went to go check on them and to apologize again for hurting him and you’ll never guess what I saw.”
“What? What happened?” she was facing me now, very eager.
“They were kissing.” She gasped
“No. you’re lying!” she put a hand over her mouth
“Not even.” I said.
“Zayn! Do you know what this means?!” I gave her a dumbfounded look “It meanssssssss that there could be another couple in our little group! I mean we all know Kayleigh and Liam will eventually end up together, so we could all be dating together!” of course she had thought of that.
“Well don’t you think it’s a little skanky for them to do that so soon after Louis and Kayleigh?”
“Yeah but, that was nothing. Just a summer fling, and she’s over it anyway.” I was getting heated again. I knew now that she didn’t know the details that I was just told by Liam, and there was absolutely no justifying getting annoyed by this, but I couldn’t help it. Here it comes.
“You don’t know that Sadie. It was pretty recent and no relationship, no matter how short is ‘easy’ to get over.” It came out harsher than I wanted.
“Chill Zayn. I’m just going by what I was told.” I absolutely hated when she told me to ‘chill’ and she knew I hated it.
“Whatever, let’s just go. It doesn’t matter.” I said. She let out a big sigh and followed me back to the table down stairs and outside. She sat next to Cara and Harry joined a conversation they were having about Slip N Slides. While I sat next to Niall and Liam and listened to them talk about The X Factor. Why did it have to come to this?
