Jimin's Pet • PJM

Forty One

"Nothing changes except you know the truth. You can't tell anyone." Jimin watched her face change and he immediately started shaking his head in disbelief.

"Everything changes, I'm not leaving you. How could I just walk away? And Kook, your death is breaking Joon's heart, I really don't think he can get through this, you have to tell him. I can't lie to them!" Jimin felt himself vibrating with the emotion, dread sinking into every nerve in his body at what she'd said.

"I know it will be hard, but there's no choice. Telling even you was a risk but involving the other five could mean Hybe finds out. There could be leaks and then Eunwoo will disappear for real." She wrapped her hands around his and Jimin stared down at where they touched.

"I'll come back and see you every day then." His words felt feeble, like they weighed nothing in the face of his sorrow at parting with her again.

"No, you can't keep coming here, it will look suspicious." Kookie spoke up softly, an apology without saying sorry.

"That's just it, we've alive, goodbye?" Jimin choked back the anger that made him feel. It was a hot miserable thing that coiled in his stomach, something he really should hold inside.

"For now." It was her turn to placate him.

The warmth of her hands might have meant to calm him, give him confidence to see her side but he couldn't. He'd lived with thinking they had died, carried the pain and guilt on his shoulders. Tae had pretended to be in love with him to protect him from the memory of her and now she wanted him to walk out of this apartment and pretend he didn't know the truth? His whole life had been lies, probably were the reason they were all in this mess in the first place and the two of them wanted him to add more to the chaos?

"No." Jimin pulled his hands back, he felt like he'd been scalded. Did everyone's feelings not matter to them? Justice wasn't worth this, he'd rather have them back than catch Eunwoo.

"There's no choice, it's only temporary. Hopefully Eunwoo slips up and everything falls into place soon." She reached to him again and he let the anger seep out, his control of it waning with her dismissal.

"While what? Joon finally stops leaving his apartment entirely? Breaks up with Sujin because he can't stand the thought of loving someone? And the two of you just sit in this room all day?" Jimin stood and moved behind the chair, grasping the back railing so he had something to do with his hands. "Are you sleeping together? Fucking all day?" Why did that thought make him feel crazy?

Jimin sensed the truth of it suddenly, Kookie's hand which had laid gently against her leg snapped away. Y/N's cheeks flushed pink and she glanced at the floor. Everyone was crying their hearts out over the two of them and they were perfectly fine, fuck buddies. 'Bunny thinks I look tough' the way he'd said it, how sweetly he gazed at her, how she'd grabbed his forearm. Jimin felt cold, sickly and he wanted to leave.

"You never cared before, why are you being jealous?" Kookie stood as well his hand holding Jimin's arm below the elbow, his grip slightly too tight.

"The two of you hadn't faked your deaths before. I hadn't been separated from you, I wasn't shut out. But the thought of the two of you doing that while the rest of us suffered through the lie, it disgusts me." Jimin was saying words he knew he should take back, could see how each one hurt both of the people he loved.

Shouldn't his relief and gratefulness that they were alright overshadow every other emotion? Why didn't it? He swallowed hard, tears threatening to break through and then he'd just look pathetic. Funny how neither of them were saying they'd stop having sex, they both just radiated guilt.

"I won't lie to the guys. Fuck both of you if you think I'm walking out of here and doing that. If you can't trust all six of us then you shouldn't have told me. It was selfish, you did it to make yourself feel better Y/N, not to comfort me. You said you told your dad if I remembered you, because if I didn't what? I could just fuck off?" Jimin pried Kookie's fingers loose, it was as if the maknae didn't want to let go.