Jimin's Pet • PJM

Forty Six

"Can I just have you to myself a few more minutes?" You pressed forward against Jimin's body, wishing the maid didn't have to be trapped in this apartment and could go home. Having a loud foursome steps away from where she prepared dinner in the kitchen wasn't a good idea.

"I'm yours sweetheart, always." He nuzzled his cheek against your neck and you felt sadness creep into you. How could you watch him leave again? Then something else crossed your mind.

You told yourself to keep your mouth shut, that asking him this question would just give you feelings you didn't want. Somehow you couldn't contain it, maybe your own guilt for the few times you'd slept with Kookie were making you curious.

"Did you sleep with anyone else while I've been gone?" That changed the feeling of sadness, but it didn't exactly fill you with the jealousy you'd expected. 

"Tae, but only because they tried to convince me that the two of us had never broken up. I almost slept with Yoongi, or I should say I would have except we ended up arguing instead during a scene and he ended it." Jimin told you what you wanted to know without showing any anger, without his usual walls shooting into the sky between you. That kept you calm even though his words alarmed you.

"Because you wanted him to cut you again?" You winced, remembering asking about it before. At that time he'd left abruptly, nearly cheated, and had dumped you the next morning. You really should just shut up.

"No, we argued about me visiting Irene. I know it's not good for me, but I was desperate Angel. I knew there were too many gaps in my memory and they weren't filling them in."

"I didn't realize you turned to him so often." You hoped that hadn't come out negatively, it was just new to you. Aside from the very violent cutting you hadn't been aware that Jimin subbed for Yoongi, or anyone since Irene.

"I haven't in years, but the last two months have been a head first dive into my memories. Part of that has given me some complicated feelings about him. A very long time ago I thought we might be together, but he had feelings for Hobi and nothing ever came of it. The feelings went away, but losing my memory and some of it coming back has brought to surface things I'd forgotten." Jimin looked vulnerable, like he was worried he might have revealed something to you that would make you run from him.

"While we're apart maybe you should explore that. Especially if there's the possibility Jjille could come back and be with Hobi." You had no clue where that had come from, but you meant it. There was no feeling of threat when you imagined Jimin and Yoongi together.

"I don't know." He shrugged the thought away but you could see he was thinking about your words. "Can I ask you something now?"

"Anything." You let your fingernails drag through his hair, watched his eyes flutter closed at the touch before he made eye contact again.

"Do you have any feelings for Kook?" You felt struck, but could you really be surprised he was asking? You remained silent until you absolutely couldn't any longer or risk upsetting him.

"Yes, but nothing like I have for you, but it would be a lie if I said I didn't love him, that I didn't feel connected to him after everything we've been through. I'm sorry Jagiya, I'm yours, just like you're mine. I'm not going anywhere!" You admitted what had been on your mind for weeks, in fact you and Kookie might have had a lot more sex if you'd not realized how complicated your feelings had gotten. You suspected his had evolved in the same ways.

"If I said you can't be with him? That I don't want you to sleep with him again?" His words held an edge but he said them softly, like he was trying to control himself and not overreact.