They the Wubbox : Rewritten

Random thing

(Tw for serious subjects about stuff like Hypersexuality, suicidal thoughts, and truama—even though it's about fictional characters, still...)

"Oh, Bastard, why are you here? Tf, i came for TtW, not your sappy love story!!"

WELL GO CRY ABOUT IT!!!!!

Anyways, i recently thought about :
"I Love You Like An Alcoholic - Six Steps In"

If you didn't know, that was the "theme song" for Fire and Wubbox's relationship in the old TtW book. Now, let me tell you why their relationship was bad, and why i decided to change it a lot in this rewrite.

So, i have a private book with smut (i will never release it) and in those—and hinted at in the old book—Wubbox was very—too much—hypersexual.
Now, i know i struggle with this and when i was originally writing the old TtW, i was not particularly alright. But, near the end, i just realized how bad their relationship was.

Wubbox seemed to be unable to function without Fire. He was dependent on sex to want to keep living, and it felt like the only thing he actually wanted.
They were scared about telling others in fear of being never allowed to be with each other, and Wubbox would definatly of been not alive if that ever happened.
They were scared because they were both wubbox, and in the only version, they were considered like cousins, and they thought everyone would hate them, try to kill them, or worse.
Wubbox tried to stay away to stop others from finding out, but no matter what, he was always drawn back to him. Like stated before, he was unable to function without him.

(Yeah, i'm a fucking sicko with problems i need to see a therapist about but won't.)

Now, if you somehow can't tell how awful that kind of relationship is, please ask your therapist about it.
But, in this rewritten book, i decided to get rid of that obsessive, sex driven, and red-wired relationship, and change it into two autistic individuals—one with trauma, and one without—and how autism doesn't affect the same person in the exact way, and just how even simple trauma and kill a person inside. (Wow, its like i know from experience or something.)

And in this book—though Wubbox is still hypersexual—Fire is trying to tone him down later on, because he's getting worse, and though he tries to get Wubbox to see someone about it, he refuses, and never wants to. The only monster he could feel like he can safely vent his problems to is Fire.
Wubbox is crazed for him, and if he were to ever be away for too long, he would never be able to control himself. He already nearly wanted to just sleep forever, but he couldn't will himself to do it. It was just to hard to go through with it, even if he wanted it.

Fire felt like the half of his brain he needed. Fire was calm, somewhat social, wise and collected despite Wubbox being the exact opposite.
Wubbox kept stalking him for a long time, and i quote from my (remade) private smut book, Fire yelled to Wubbox :

"Oh my god, Wubbox! The first time i don't want to immediately have sex with you, you automatically assume i'm cheating on you. Not only do you have a tracker on my phone to see where i am at all times, and have a strict schedule for when i should be doing something, but when i do something as simple as saying no, You blow up on me! What is it going to take for you to understand monsters can disagree, and i can just not want to do something! What have i ever done in the past which gives you a great reason for you to be distrustful of me? I'd love an example!"

...
Yeah.
See how bad that is?
Since Wubbox not only has autism—which inhibits his ability in social situations, how to react to certain stimuli, and how his brain carries signals around his core—but he also has BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder.) —Which makes him fearful of being abandoned, quick to change his point of view of someone, paranoid anyone he meets will leave him at any point in time, and if they don't follow your schedule, they're going behind you're back and trying to plan to hurt you.

Wubbox doesn't see these things as out of the ordinary, and though he tries to be a good monster to everyone and his kids, he always fails at some point. Countless times did he wish to die, so that someone else would take his place and he wouldn't have to suffer, yet the world force him to live on.
Fire knows how hard life is for him, and knows that Wubbox depends on him to keep going. He talks to his own therapist about it, and countless times does she say to leave him, but he never does, because he knows Wubbox will die without him, and sending him to any mental-health care units will only speed up the process.

Now, in the book, i promise i'm trying to find a somewhat good ending for him, but its really hard.
Just like dealing with mental disorders, personality disorders, etc, they're relentless and cruel, and never completely go away.
If Wubbox does get a good ending, he will still need these traits, but he'll need much more serious measures and precautions. And if anything, one day he'll end up in a place he won't get out of easily. Weather it's jail/prison, a psychic ward, the old, gross basement of a cult, or a farm out on shugabush island, he'll end up there.
One day.
It won't be easy, and it will happen.

"H-Holy fuck Bastard...I-I...Why are you writing this? A-Are you ok??"

No, and i want to get my words out and written down for all to see. Consider it my Brain Dump.
If you don't see me the same after this, feel free to leave me alone and judge me all you want.

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