You broke me for nothing...

Chapter 2

"What!" I bite at Chris trying my best to stay calm but already failing, and he is taken aback... "I uhm... How are you doing?" He asks and i scoff. Just like that after leaving me broken on the floor he now wants to know how i am doing... "Seriously? Like i would tell you... You dont care..." I say letting out a scoff again and he sighs... "Of course, i care Kay-kay..." He says using the old nickname he always used and i feel my blood start to boil... When we were togeteher i loved that nickname... He was the only one who was allowed to call me that and it always made me feel so giddy when he called me Kay-kay... But now it just made me cringe. It made me want to punch him.  He steps closer to me...

"Dont... Dont you fucking call me that. You lost the fucking right when you left me... When you left me to die alone... Because you were being a pussy... A selfish fucking asshole..." I spit at him poking him in his chest and pushing him back to keep a distance... I dont want him close... I want him as far away from me as possible... "You are a coward..." I say pushing him and he looks at me with both eyes growing wide as he loses his balance a little... "A poor excuse of a man... God if only the world knew what a piece of shit you really are..." I growl and he looks at me with just pure shock...

"Kay..." He started to say but quickly corrects himself. "Kate... I know i screwed up and i was an asshole... I was scared and..." He starts to say and i am really losing it... He was scared... God still now he only thinks about himself... He was scared... I had been the one who was told she was sick, but he was scared..."YOU WERE SCARED!!! OOOOOH NOOOOO YOU WERE SCARED... THAT MUST HAVE BEEN REALLY AWFUL." I scream at him while punching his chest... He doesn't react he just lets me... It only pisses me off more... "I WAS TOLD I WAS SICK, BUT YOU WERE SCARED.... POOR LITTLE CHRIS..." I yell at him, and he turns bright red looking around as people stare at us... "WHAT! SCARED TO LOSE YOUR GOLDEN BOY STATUS!! SCARED THAT PEOPLE WILL LEARN THE TRUTH ABOUT YOU." I yell at him not caring who hears or sees...

But i feel my baby start to kick and quickly stop putting my hands on my belly... "Kate are you okay?" He asks looking at me worried and as the idiot i am, i nod... "I am fine..." I say calming myself down as i have to think about my baby. "Just leave me alone... I dont want anything to do with you ever again... You broke me it took me a long time to be me again... But guess what... I got over it..." I say with venom in my voice while opening my car door... But i look at him one final time and start to chuckle... My chuckle turns into laughing hysterically... I can't stop laughing and squeeze my legs together as to not pee..."You know what the funny thing is about all of this..." I say wiping away the tears that rolling down my cheek from laughing so hard and he looks at me as if i have lost it... Maybe i have... But i know what is coming next will give me great satisfaction. What is coming next will be a shock to him... I dont think he knows... I dont think anyone has ever told him as i requested... 

"What?" He asks really soft and for a moment i feel sorry for him as he just looks sad... But then i remember what he has done and i am ready... Ready to tell him... To push in the knife and hope he will bleed... "The doctors were wrong... There was a mix-up in the hospital... I was never sick..." I say and get in the car without another word or second glance.... I just drive off leaving him standing there in shock... I hope that sinks in... He broke me for nothing. He broke us for nothing... We could have had it all. I hope this breaks him like he had broken me... I hope that it hurts... I know it is not healthy to think like this but i just want him to hurt like he hurt me... 

All sorts of emotions run through me as i drive away from him and i have to pull over to have a good cry... This is not what i had planned for today... I was having a nice day off... Just enjoying some time for myself... I didn't need this today... I just wanted a nice relaxing day... 

I sigh and text my little spy letting her know that Chris knows giving her a quick summary of what happened... That is the least i could do after she held my secret for so long... I get a text back thanking me for letting me know. Asking me if i am alright. She knows how much of a painful subject this is for me. I have made it an art to avoid him... 

I sigh and pull myself together and start the car... Time to go home sit on the couch with a sad movie and eat cheesecake...