You broke me for nothing...

Chapter 6

Kate pov...

"I am so sorry Tara..." I say feeling extremely guilty... Tara called and told me the cat is out of the bag... No more anonymous spy... Chris knows that she is the one i stayed in contact with all the time... She called me right after he had left her place... Apparently it had been quite the fight... 

Apparently, he was furious about the fact that Tara kept in contact with me and did not tell him... Something about pouring his heart out without her telling him that she was still in contact with me... From what i understood Tara gave him an earful. Saying he had no right after what he did to me. I didn't want anything to do with him anymore and she was going to respect that... That he was lucky that his friends still talked to him after all that... That someone had to drag me out of the dark spiral i was in... I was not happy that she told him i had given up... Because i had... I had gone to such a dark place and i still thought i was sick. I had given up in the sense as i denied all treatment... 

Tara was the one dragging me out of that, and Tara was the one who was with me when the doctor confessed that they made a mistake... Tara was the one who helped me come to terms with the fact i was not dying. I know it sounds strange, but it is weird. One moment you are going to die and the next there is nothing wrong... It kind of messes with your head... 

Tara helped me start over by finding a new place. A fresh start. She would text me to let me know if Chris would be out and about. She helped me avoid him and i know it was hard for her seeing as she is one of his closest friends. She always reassured me it was fine. That she was happy to help. That she was my friend to... 

"Look i just want you to know that i appreciate everything you have done for me..." I say through the phone. "Oh sweetie... Of course. That's what friends are for... Besides he deserved it... But i just want to warn you that i dont think it is over yet... He wants to speak to you..." Tara says sounding tired and worried... 

"What? Why?"  Is all i manage to say... I can hear Tara let out a deep breath... "God, i dont know... He kept mumbling about fixing things..."  Tara sighs and i feel the blood drain from my face... "He can't possibly think that it is fixable... He left... When i needed him the most... After he promised me in sickness and in health... At least that is what asking someone to marry you is, right?" I say and Tara takes in a deep breath... "Right..." She says and now i am the one taking a deep breath... "Why... Just why... I moved on... I have a baby on the way... I am engaged..." I say feeling the panic rise inside of me... 

"I know... I know... I told him you did not want that... But you know how he is... Stubborn..." Tara says and i sigh pinching the bridge of my nose... "Great... Just great..." I mumble and as i look up i see Elliot standing in the doorway... "Look Tara... I have to go..." I say and hang up the phone... Elliot walks over to me and kisses me... "What did Tara want?" He asks and i sigh and look away... "Kate?" He says a little bit more forceful turning my face towards him and i groan... "She wanted nothing... Just shit with Chris... He knows that Tara is the one who kept in contact with me and such..." I mumble. I dont want to lie to Elliot. He stands up and groans... "Seriously... Chris... Again..." He growls frustrated and i sigh.... 

"Look... I am sorry... But i did not want this... I dont want to talk to him. I dont want anything to do with him. The chapter called Chris closed a long time ago... I can't help it that he all of a sudden, pops up in our lives... I did not ask for this..." I say and Elliot scoffs his face just annoyed and i just look at him stunned... "You think i want all this...?"  I ask him a cold shiver running down my spine and he glares at me... 

"You're telling me that you feel nothing?  That you dont feel anything at all about the fact that Mr. Famous Hollywood star has set its sight on you again..." He hisses and i look at him... "What No! Dont be ridiculous..." I say raising my voice and he scoffs again... "There is not a teeny tiny part of you that feel flattered by that... I mean... He can get any woman he wants... But instead of going for the famous actress or model he seems to want you... Plain old Kate..." He says and i look at him and i am sure my face is white as a sheet as his words hurt... "Plain old Kate...?" I murmur in a dazed tone of voice... 

"Plain old Kate..." I say again and i feel the tears spring in my eyes... "Kate..." Elliot says and walks over to me but i stand up and hold up my hand as i dont want him around me right now... "Dont... Plain old Kate, needs a moment alone right now..." I say and turn around and walk to the bedroom, closing the door behind me and locking it... "Oh come on Kate... Dont be so sensitive..." He yells through the door knocking on it but i dont answer. I am just in a state of shock...

I sit down on the edge of the bed and wonder what just happened. Elliot has never talked to me like this. He has never made me feel like this... I feel... Hurt, worthless and as if he is implying that he is doing me a favor being with me... Never ever has he made me feel less than him. Never has he said a negative word about me, to me... He keeps knocking on the door and for the first time in our relationship i feel a sliver of fear... 

But the knocking stops and i just lay down and close my eyes giving myself a minute to cry...