You broke me for nothing...

Chapter 14

Chris pov...

3 days... It has been 3 days since we got the news about Kate losing her baby. I am at home but only to grab a few things. Tara is still in the hospital with Kate. She is the only one she allows around her so i am still helping out with the kids, so Tyler can keep working... Kate is still in the hospital and from what i understood she is not doing much better. Tara told us she was still not talking. The police had been by, but Kate just laid there staring ahead. No matter what the police said or tried she did not react to anything... She is not reacting to anyone. It is like she has shut off... They are really worried about her... I am really worried, and it is getting harder and harder to stay away... I just want to go over and hold her tight... But as much as i want to i know that i am probably the last person she wants to see...

There was some good news though... Apparently there were cameras around the outside of the house, and they caught what probably was the end of Elliot's attack... What Tara has been told, it caught Kate stumbling to her car obviously hurt. It showed Kate getting in the car just in time to lock the door as Elliot attacked the car, screaming at Kate. The police were now actively looking for him, but he seemed to be hiding out somewhere... He probably knows his days as a free man are numbered... Or at least i hope so... That man killed Kate's baby and deserved life in prison... The police came to talk to me to... I was not much help as  i told them what happened. I did tell them i hope they will find Elliot before i do because i dont know what i will do to him... They urged me to call them if he would show up and to not take matters in my own hand... I can't promise that... I seriously dont know what i would do... 

When i am back at Tara and Tyler's place, Tyler is on the phone... He looks up and gives me a nod acknowledging me... "Yeah i will do that... Do you have any idea what Kate would want in that regard...?" He asks what i am guessing is Tara on the other end of the line. 

"Okay, i will figure it out... Does he have a name i can let them know?" Tyler asks and he smiles... "That is a beautiful name..." He says giving a little pained smile... "Okay, love you darling... Talk to you later..." Tyler says and hangs up... 

He lets out a groan... "What's wrong? Kate, okay? Any change?" I ask and he sighs... "No change... But they want to know what to do with the baby's body, the body needs to be claimed... Kate is still not talking and not reacting when she got asked what she wanted. Tara and i agree though and we think it is good to have some sort of goodbye... So, Kate can say goodbye... Tara wants me to set something up but other than a name for the baby we got nothing on what she would want..." He says and i nod... "What is the baby's name?" I ask and he smiles again with a sad undertone... "Simon... The baby's name is Simon..." He says and i smile... "Simon..." I repeat and we both take a deep breath... 

"Look... I can set something up for a memorial... I think i know what Kate would like... I helped her when her dad died..." I say and Tyler seems to think about it for a moment... "We dont have to tell her i did it... I think that that is better... But i want to do something to help and you already have enough on your plate and Tara is still with Kate..." I say and Tyler gives me a nod... "Okay... That would actually be really helpful... Thank you..." Tyler says and i smile and nod... "Anything for Kate..." I say and he pats my shoulder... "One day she will know, and she will appreciate it..." He says and i force a smile at him... "That is not why i am doing it..." Is say and he smiles... "I know..." He says and then one of the kids starts yelling. "You can use my office..." He says and i nod... 

So that is what i am doing with my time for the next couple of days... Making arrangements... I had done everything you can think of with what Kate would want in mind. It is not my baby but damn it was emotional. It is no easy thing picking out a little coffin, a headstone and music... I had gone for a burial so she would have a place to go to mourn. I dont think cremation and having an urn at her house would be smart as it would be a constant fixture... I kept in contact with Tara to confirm that what i was doing was okay... When i had trouble choosing things, she helped me pick. I had arranged security to make sure there would be no unwanted guests...

I had asked ma to come with me to pick out some clothes for Kate to wear to the memorial. Ma was heartbroken for Kate. She had been by the hospital to visit, and it had been a shock to see the state of Kate... She helped me pick out some clothes for Kate as she had gotten a better eye for her sizes and helped me with the text for the headstone...

But after 2 days of planning everything was set and tomorrow would be the memorial and burial... I just hoped it was what Kate would have wanted... He was going to be buried next to her dad... I think that she would like that... I did my best... I was going to be there but was going to stay in the background and just manage things to keep everything running smooth... I just wanted Kate to be able to say goodbye without having to worry about anything... Everything was paid for... All she had to do was say goodbye to her baby boy... The hospital had cleared her and after the memorial she would go to Tara's and Tyler's house to stay with them for a while. From there they would see what she wanted to move forward but everyone agreed it was not okay for her to be alone right now... The hospital cleared her only if she had a place to stay with someone to watch over her... 

What nobody knows and i will never tell anyone is that i paid her medical bill. I dont want her to worry about that. So, i called the hospital and told them i would pay it anonymously... To just tell her it has been handled and to not bother her with it... Everything was set... Tyler had brought the clothes to the hospital. I had packed my stuff and cleaned the guestroom, so it was ready for Kate. After the memorial i would go back home. 

But for now, i promised the kids a game night... So, i put everything in the back off my mind and yelled for the kids to pick out a game...