You broke me for nothing...

Chapter 73

Kate pov...

"You look good..." Tara says looking a little awkward and i nod... "You to..." I mumble feel equally awkward. I feel tense and on edge... We haven't spoken for so long. I eventually gave up trying to reach out to her. I just told myself the ball was in her court...  I did not give her anymore updates about my life as she was not responding to anything. It hurt that she was icing me out. We never went this long without speaking. Sometimes all i wanted to do was talk to her... Share something with her about my life or ask her about hers... Like we always have done. All i wanted was for her to comfort me if i was scared about this pregnancy... I wanted to comfort her if she needed it. Like we always had done... I had no idea what was going on in her life and that was a weird feeling. 

I dont really understand why she was so against me and Chris getting back together. Well to be fair... I can see her point of view. I was a wreck after he left, and she picked up the pieces and i get that she does not want to do that again... But she is also the one who knows Chris has changed and grown up... We all have... We are not those clueless kids anymore... She always stayed friends with him. She never cut him off and i never expected her to. But here we are... and it feels awkward. I can't help but rub my belly in a protective manner. I still dont know how to think about the fact that she called this baby the biggest mistake ever. I dont know what to say to her anymore. My mind is spinning trying to think of something to say... It feels so incredibly awkward.

 "Oh, this is ridiculous... Come sit with us... We were just about to order lunch... Join us..." Lisa blurts out and Tara and i look at each other... "I dont want to interrupt... Just wanted to say hi..." Tara says almost in a whisper... "Oh dont be silly... You are not interrupting... Come sit... I insist..." Lisa says standing up and she walks to another table asking if she can take one of their chairs... I still dont know what to say... Tara just stands there neither one of us looking at each other... Lisa comes back with the chair and motions to Tara to sit. They both sit down again. She did not have a choice... No one says no to Lisa... It is not that she would make you do things against your will, but she has this natural authority... People respect her. 

Just when Lisa wants to say something a waiter comes over. He hands Tara a menu and asks her what she wants to drink. She orders and we burry ourselves in the menus... The waiter brings Tara's drink and then there is no hiding in the menus anymore as we have to order. 

We ordered and the menus get taken away... We sit there in silence neither one of us saying a thing. "Oh god, you two are ridiculous... Come on girls... You two love each other... You are like sisters... This has gone on long enough... You two need each other..." Lisa says in a somewhat stern tone and we both look at her. 

"I am sorry..." Tara says and looks at me... I look at her a little bit in shock. Tara is not one to apologize often... "I am sorry to..." I mumble but she shakes her head... "You have nothing to be sorry about... I was out of line... Deep down i knew Chris and you would end up back together... I was just stuck in the past... You two never stopped loving each other..." She says and i blush. She is probably right... "Yeah... But you picked up the pieces when i could not do it myself. I dont think i ever thanked you for that... I know it was hard and i have not made it easy on you back then..." I say and she sighs... "No... But you would do the same for me... You have done the same for me many times..." She says and we both smile at each other. 

"Are you happy?" Tara asks and my smile grows bigger... "Very..." I say and Tara's smile grows to... "That is all i want for you... You deserve all the happiness in the world." She says and puts her hand over mine. "Thank you..." I whisper blushing. 

"Excellent..." Lisa says interrupting us with the biggest smile on her face and we both look at her... "You planned this, didn't you...?" I say looking at Lisa who now smirks... "I dont know what you are talking about..." She says and Tara and i look at each other and burst out laughing... Leave it to Lisa to make things happen. 

The ice is broken and i feel like this enormous weight is lifted of my shoulders. Lunch gets served and it looks so good... I can't stop smiling as we eat and talk as if nothing has ever happened. I update Tara about my pregnancy, and she talks about what is going on in her life. It is nice... It is so nice... I have my friend back...