You broke me for nothing...

Chapter 72

Kate pov...

"Oooh this is so cute..." Lisa says holding up this little dress with strawberries on them. Lisa and i are spending the day together. Scott and Chris were spending the day together watching football or doing whatever they do together. You never know with those two. They probably have the house a mess. They are so chaotic together. Normally it is funny to see but i wanted to give them some brother bonding time seeing as Chris had not spend much time with his family lately because of me. So, i had called Lisa and asked her if she wanted to spend the day with me. Maybe get some lunch or dinner, do some shopping and just spend some quality time together. 

I just chuckle as we dont know if it is going to be a boy or girl yet. Next week we will find out. I can't wait, we are all so excited to find out. Lisa is ecstatic that she gets to come along. I love that she is so happy and looking forward to the birth of our baby... "That is adorable..." I say and she puts it in the cart. I chuckle. "Lisa... We dont know if it is a boy or girl yet..." I say and she chuckles... "Well i am taking it anyway... Besides... If it is a boy, i will tailor it into a shirt..." She says and i shake my head with a big smile on my face. "This baby is going to be so spoiled..." I mumble rubbing my belly and Lisa chuckles... "Yes, they will..." She says proudly smirking and i laugh. 

"Okay... Let's go and get some lunch before you buy everything in the store..." I say smiling and Lisa chuckles again. We go to the register and after paying we get back to car. We drive to this little bistro that Lisa loves. She asked where i wanted to eat first but i could not make up my mind so made her decide. I am indecisive about a lot these days. Can't make up my mind about anything. Sometimes it is frustrating. The hormones are raging through my body making me unreasonable at times. The first time i broke down over nothing i had apologized over and over after. I was so scared Chris would be angry and annoyed... Which triggered another breakdown. But no such thing happened... He was so sweet and compassioned. 

I slowly came to the realization that my previous relationship had not been so good as i thought it was. I always thought that before the day he lost it we were good. That we had a solid relationship. I dont know why i thought that looking back. It was like the sweeter Chris was to me the more it opened my eyes. It made me more emotional sometimes. At times i felt so stupid. How could i not have realized. Had i realized maybe Simon would be alive. I know it is futile to think like that. I had started therapy, and it was helping a little. But still there are times where the guilt is eating at me. 

"Kate... Honey..." A sweet and gentle voice says and i snap out of my little mind spin... "Are you okay?" Lisa asks and i force a smile on my face... "Yeah sorry... Just a little tired..." I say and she smiles softly. "We can go home if you like." She says a little worried but i shake my head. "Nope... As tired as i am, the little Muppet wants food..." I say and smile genuinely this time making Lisa laugh... "The little Muppet is hungry, huh..." She says smirking and i nod. "Well can't let my grandbaby starve..." She says a big smirk on her face and a twinkle in her eyes. We get out of the car. 

We walk into the restaurant and get seated immediately. "So have you and Chris thought about names yet?" Lisa asks as we are looking over the menu... I chuckle as Lisa is too curious for her own good sometimes. It is adorable. She is not invasive or anything. She respects it when we set boundaries but still, she wants to know everything. I dont mind. Not having a mother myself i just love it. At least one of this Muppet' s parents has a stable family who will love him or her. I wouldn't mind telling her, but Chris was adamant on keeping the names to ourselves. 

"We have names... But i can't tell you. Chris wants to keep them a secret until the baby is born." I say giggling and Lisa chuckles. "I get that... Naming your baby is special and you dont want the name to be spoiled by people giving their opinions and with what Chris does for a living there will be a lot of opinions..." Lisa sighs and i nod. "How are you handling the fact your pregnancy is out in the open?" She asks and i shrug my shoulders. "I am okay. I knew it would happen sooner or later... He was more upset about it than i was. It is what it is... I am not on social media a lot anyways. So other then it being on tv or magazines i dont see the crazy comments." I say and Lisa smiles... "I am glad... I am glad Chris has you... You have always been so levelheaded. You two belong together. You are what he needs in his crazy life." She says and i smile. "I think it is the other way around... I need him... I finally feel like i can breathe again." I say blushing and she smiles. 

"I am so happy you guys worked it out." She says and i nod. "We both have grown up a lot... Chris has changed a lot... He can still be a little kid, and dont get me wrong i love that about him... But he communicates so much better now..." I say smiling and Lisa nods proudly... "He worked hard on that. He went to therapy you know... A year after your breakup..." She says and i look at her shocked. He had never told me... "He did?" I ask a little shocked at this new piece of information and Lisa nods. "He wanted to learn from his mistake and needed help to learn to communicate... We talked about it a lot... But as a mother you can only do so much, so he went to a professional..." She says and i blush... "Did you decide on what you want to eat?" Lisa asks me as my mind is still spinning a little bit. 

"Kate... Lisa...?" We all of a sudden hear and i freeze... "Tara..." I whisper and look up to see Tara standing at our table...