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Becoming An Enigma| Request

AN: Someone requested an imagine where reader is jealous of Leon's love for Ada, so she tries to become like her, but ends up finding out that it's so much easier to be cool and distant, which leads to Leon fawning over reader. However, by this point reader is embracing herself and desires, which means leaving Leon behind.

This one's a little angsty with a not so happy ending♡

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You may have my number, you can take my name
But you'll never have my heart
-Skyfall by Adele

Leon POV:

I watch Ada leave, my eyes focused on nothing but her. She's always been the one mystery in my life that I could never solve. The one enigma that keeps me guessing and wanting more, but then again, Ada Wong isn't meant to be understood and figured out. I bet everything I have that most men never even get to see her twice.

I'm different though, or at least some part of me likes to think that. Ada's made it clear that she's not an easy woman, and doesn't follow anybody about, but she's also shown me that she does have a heart, she's saved me numerous times when she didn't need to. I don't know much about deep rooted care and devotion, but there's gotta be a reason we keep meeting. Somewhere along the line surely there's a point when we can stop with our constant chase. I want the reward.

Y/N POV:

My teeth clench as I watch Leon stare at Ada, her hips swaying seductively as he leaves us, a knowing smile on her perfect lips as she turns and waves at Leon. I swallow back my threats, feeling a massive sense of jealously for his obsession with her. What does she have that I don't? I know she's gorgeous, but a pretty face doesn't equate to a loving heart. She wants to be chased, I realise. She's playing hard to get, purposely guarding herself in mysterious ways to not get close to anyone.

Would Leon look at me the same way if I was Ada? But even I know that's impossible, I can't just become another person.

Or maybe I can? Maybe I don't have to look like Ada, but just change myself a little, take inspiration from her personality to better myself. To become what Leon wants. An enigma.

Over the next few weeks I talk to Leon less. Despite working as regular partners, I try and do things solo. He doesn't question it at first, presumably guessing I'm just being quiet or have something on my mind. I miss him at first, I used to love our strange conversations and quirky talks, but then the silence grows on me. I get more done in the missions, rather than discussing things with Leon, I steam ahead, trusting my instincts which usually are right.

I'd always assumed working solo would be boring and dangerous, but the thrill of it is addictive. Leon becomes snappy after my ignorance, until one decision changes everything between us...

"What are you doing?" Leon asks, eyes widening as I grab our main source of information; a scum of a man who's been selling B.O.W.s to different organisations. I ignore Leon, pointing my gun at the man's head as he whimpers and raises his hands in the air.

"Tell me who provided you with the B.O.W.s!" I say, my voice calm and collected. I see Leon arch a brow at my method, I used to be so much nicer about it. "You've got three seconds before I go ask somebody else." I add, readying the gun. The man falls to his knees, pleading for his life as I sigh, titling my head in annoyance. "Okay then." I shrug, pulling the trigger just as the man shouts out the details I was looking for.

When there's no loud gunshot, both men stare at me, Leon's eyes wide and full of surprise and something else, the informant just looks ready to pass out. I smile, patting the man's cheek with a gloved hand as I back away, pulling the missing bullet from my pocket. "Thanks for the info, but next time it'd be wise to answer right away." I smoothly murmur, eyes glinting with a lightheartedness, then I turn and walk out of the room, not even checking to see if Leon's following.

It's been over two months since I abandoned my weaknesses and switched off my emotions, not literally of course, I still feel fear and excitement, but it's so much easier to just keep it all inside, buried deep so I can get the job done and move on. I left behind the constant yearning for my partner and the feelings of not being enough. I am enough, I know that now, and I also know that I'm so done with the tiniest gratifications, I'm aiming for bigger.

"Hey, wait up!" Leon calls, rushing down the corridor after me. I don't stop, but I slow down, my heeled boots still echoing down the hall. Leon reaches me, gently grabbing my shoulder. With a huff of amusement I stop, turning my head to look up at him.

I don't speak, but wait for him to tell me what he wants.

"We didn't plan that. It wasn't supposed to go down that way." He frowns, referring to my questioning technique.

I arch a brow, noticing how his blue eyes dip to my glossy lips. "I did it my way, and it worked. If we had took him in we would've had to wait until getting clearance. We got answers, so job done." I lightly smile, keeping my eyes on his. I see Leon's throat bob, lips parting as the hand on my shoulder moves down to my elbow, fingers tracing slowly.

"What's on your mind, handsome?" I ask, knowing the reaction I'll get. It works, Leon licks his lips, a sure sign he wants me, then he steps closer. I hold my own, not moving even as we're chest to chest. I've finally got him ensnared, but sadly for him it's too late. I'm over always running after him, tripping at the last hurdle. This time, Leon can feel what it's like to desire someone you can't have.

"You're different. I can't explain it, but...you feel familiar and like a stranger at the same time." He whispers, hand now enclosing over mine. I let him touch me, getting a taste of what could've been, and then I pull away, carefully flicking my hair away from my face.

"I don't know what you mean. I'm the happiest I've ever been." I laugh, then with one last wink I turn and leave him confused behind me, feeling his eyes glued to me. I get an odd sense of deja vu, but this time I'm the one who's got main part in the play.

Leon POV:

I watch Y/N leave me behind, and I can't help but to feel like I'm missing something. She's been reminding reminding of someone lately, but I couldn't think of who, until just now. I don't know why she's taken on Ada's mind-set, but I know I'm not as addicted as she thinks.

I care about her, and maybe even love her, but this isn't my Y/N. The one who used to laugh at my jokes and was soft when it came to doing the right thing. This Y/N is all independent and alluring. She's still as beautiful as ever, there's no doubt about it, but she seems so cut off. I'm intrigued, but not like I was before.

I knew she liked me, but I wasn't ready for any kind of relationship. I developed attachments, mostly to Ada and Y/N herself, but couldn't bring myself to actually make moves that changed anything. It was always a chase that came close, even when I could've caught up. I chose not to.

I regret it now. Both women, more so
Y/N, are puzzles I want to solve, but the game isn't a fun one, it's unhealthy and obsessive. It's excessive and passionate, when I know I need security and love. I don't need a relationship based on pursuit, I need one based on trust and loyalty.

Y/N is an enigma now, but she's not mine to solve. Not anymore.