Burning Hearts

107. 𝐖𝐚𝐬 𝐢𝐭 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐚 𝐥𝐢𝐞?

Chapter-107

Shiva's POV

How does it feel to be snatched from something that you love so dearly?

How does it feel to lose the only person whom you love with all your heart, body and soul?

How does it feel to live when the reason for your existence is not existing anymore?

How does it feel to live when you don't want to actually live?

It is so cruel.

I wish I had words to describe what I'm feeling right now. But I don't have any.

Everything is dead. I might be breathing, but I don't have any reasons to keep going. Only the thought of finding her is keeping me alive, that's it.

We were celebrating our first month anniversary. She confessed her feelings. We watched my favourite movie together. I even confided in her about my past.

I was so happy. She made me the happiest person and for what?

I remember holding her closer to my chest before falling asleep. I don't remember her waking up before me.

It is clear from the evidence that she left on her own.

No one in their sane mind would dare to barge into my space to kidnap her. Kidnap my wife.

She walked out on her own. She wore her dress but refused to wear any jewellery. Not even her ring or mangalsutra.

She even cried happy tears after I told her how I built this house for her.

She was happy.

I cannot bring myself to think that she was faking it.

I have done pretty bad things. I slapped her, I called her names, I forced her to marry me and I hurt her with my aggressive behaviour. I know. But I've apologised for everything.

Paaru forgave me. She said she wanted to be happy with me and nothing else mattered.

She said she loved me and was looking forward to the future.

Was it all a lie?

Did she betray me just like others did?

It cannot be possible.

My Paaru doesn't have an evil bone in her body. She'd rather hurt herself than hurt others.

But why didn't she wear the ring before going out?

I have no answers for that.

I keep thinking to myself that she left to take a stroll and might have lost her way. She might be roaming around in the forest, looking for me.

But if her intention was that simple, why didn't she carry her phone with her?

I'm not sure if Paaru knows about the tracker hidden inside the mangalsutra or ring but her actions prompt me to think that she left them behind, purposefully.

She left them behind so that I wouldn't be able to track her down.

Is that what you were thinking Paaru?

But why?

After everything, we went through, I thought she gave me a chance genuinely.

I even went as far as to ask her to leave, if that's what made her happy!

If she had decided to leave me, it'd have definitely hurt me, broken me, shattered me but I wouldn't have stopped her.

I didn't want to cause any more damage to her.