Burning Hearts

103. 𝐏𝐮𝐳𝐳𝐥𝐞

Chapter-103

Shiva's POV

I wasn't an atheist but I also didn't like the idea of going to temple and praying. I always thought that if you don't work hard then no god is gonna help you. I didn't believe that God would save me from anything or anyone.

But I was wrong. Damn wrong.

If that dream, a bad dream, wasn't divine intervention, then I don't know what it is called.

I may not have carved my name on her but I would have hurt her which would have ended with the same result as in the dream. Parul asking me to let go of her, which was not possible for me.

I might have been addicted to her. I cannot live without Parul.

Life without her seems bland, worthless and pointless. I never knew thought that I'd love someone as much as I love Paaru.

Just a mere thought of her leaving me makes my heart palpitate. My brain refuses to think beyond her. To me, there is nothing other than her. To me, she is everything.

She is the very oxygen that I need to breathe, to survive.

Even if I lived, without her, I'd be walking dead. My heart wouldn't beat for anyone else. It is for Parul. Will always be for my Parul.

She has such a great influence on me. Now everyone is talking about how I've changed. Even I feel the same.

I was a mess. Parul has moulded me into something sensible.

Although I kept repeating that I wanted to kill Arya, I'd never do that. Manvi would never forgive me. My mom would never forgive me. I could never show my face to Manav. And my heart doesn't agree with it. He was my best man for years. Although he doesn't want to be a part of the gang now, I'd trust him blindly.

I don't know when I started using my heart to think instead of my brain.

Honestly, she is an Angel. She deserves all the happiness this universe could offer her. If this universe cannot offer her, I will. I'd give her my life if she asked me to. She doesn't even to have ask. If she as much as bats her eyes at me, I'd die happily for her.

But then, who's gonna love her if I die?

I've been thinking about it lately. The only reason why I was hell-bent on getting Manvi married to Ahuja's is, that they were not a part of illegal activities. I wanted her to have a secure life. I didn't want her to worry about her husband and family's safety.

Parul deserves a secure life too. If I die, unfortunately, who is going to look after her? Who is going to love her like I do? Who is going to shield her against all the odds?

It has to be me.

As sick as it seems, I cannot imagine anyone in my place. I'm not a fool to let go of her. I will protect her, and give her everything she deserves at any cost.

I've to find Brunda before he gets his hands on me or my family.

After I spoke with Arya, I couldn't help but replay whatever he said in my mind again and again.

If Bala and his gang had planned to kill Manvi, why on earth would they let Aryan live? They should have killed Aryan too, if their attack was intended to hurt me.

But they didn't kill Arya. They only knocked him out which I guess is to secure some time to take Manvi.

Their goal was hurting Aryan. Not killing him. They wanted Manvi. But what's bugging me is that we killed everyone the very same night we buried Manvi. Except Syed. He absconded the very minute the news of Aryan and I, hunting for Bala and his gang went out.