Belladonna | 18 +

Twelve | First names & staying back

"Like Kira Reynolds?" Ava asked me softly as she turned to face me fully.

I just smiled meekly and smiled a little out of embarrassment."I don't even know how we got to that point, I mean she's my professor." I sighed.

Ava thought for a moment as she continued to look over the jewellery stand. "I won't tell anyone B," she said softly. "and like you said, it was just a drunken action right? So you'll just pretend it didn't happen." She said.

I sighed and I thought for a moment. She had a point, it was just my drunken actions and nothing more. I didn't have to make a thing out of it and hopefully, she wouldn't either.

"You're right, it was all just drunken actions," I nodded confidently.

"Exactly!" She smiled. "Now, silver or gold? I still don't know which one to get," she pouted slightly.

I chuckled for a minute before answering. "Definitely the gold, silver suits you but the gold would look better on you."

"You're right, I'll get the gold," Ava smiled and set the silver bracelet down.

I agreed with her and also found a few pieces that I liked and must have overlooked the first time.

Ava and I continued to buy a few more things until we sat down to eat something. "How did you figure out Kira was the one who gave you..." she trailed off point and neck to mention the hickey that still seemed so present.

"She was at the same stand I was at getting vinyls and well she sort of kissed my neck again—to prove it was her because I didn't believe her at first," I said truthfully.

To be honest I expected her to be judgemental about the whole situation. I mean who goes to the club and doesn't remember kissing someone who leaves a hickey you? Me apparently.

If anything I was judging myself for letting it even happen but a small part of me felt good...?

I can't explain it just yet but as much as I was judging myself a part of me was open to the idea that this meant something to me, maybe I wasn't open-minded enough and needed to explore this side of me.

"At least she owned up to it," Ava shrugged with a smile. "Some people wouldn't have said anything, we gotta give her credit for that." She added.

"I guess," I said.

"How do you feel about it as a whole? Like Kira basically putting her mark on you?" She asked softly with a cautious smile.

I thought for a moment. "A part of me feels good, I can't explain it yet but it feels like a new part of me I want to explore," I said and she nodded waiting for me to finish. "but a larger part of me is judging myself, for letting it happen, that I drank too much and that I got so drunk I don't remember much. For that, I'm judging myself, hard." I said and Ava listened.

"You shouldn't be too hard on yourself for it," she said. "I'm not gonna sugarcoat it because I don't do that but it was definitely not a wise idea to drink so much, and I know we all did but you never knew you'd run into your hot professor and kiss her." She said reassuring me but also giving me the same tough love Letty and Zoë used to give me.

"I guess you're right, I just need to make a mental note to never drink that much again." I chuckled and she joined in too.

Ava and I talked more and I told her stories of back home and the happier childhood memories while she did the same.

The more Ava and I continued to talk for a long while before we went to the beach. "Are you sure you don't want to go back?" I asked her.

"No," she chuckled. "I think a day apart from Felix is what I need. Maybe everyone else too," she said firmly with the last part being mainly to herself.