Belladonna | 18 +

Thirty five | Long days & agreed dates

✺ Birdie POV ✺

It's been a long week.

For starters, I haven't been the best to Kira lately and I own up to that. It's my fault though, I let other people's words get to me.

Last weekend was one of the best weekends I've had with Kira. We spent all of Saturday morning talking and just enjoying each other's presence, she worked and I sat in her lap for most of the day—oddly just being close to her was enough for me.

Even our Sunday was good. For the most part at least.

On Sunday Ella had gone out with Livia so I invited Ava over and told her about everything, all that happened between me and Kira, I also told Emerson.

Which I think wasn't such a great idea because once he heard, Travis decided to put his two cents worth into our conversation.

He told me all sorts of things. Ranging from This isn't who I am to the fact that once our parents get wind of me talking to a woman, they won't like it.

Emerson tried to say something in my defense while I tried too, but it was useless because, for the next week, I've been getting messages from Travis telling me it's embarrassing and disgraceful to our family.

They hurt. A lot. Travis and I have never been close but you still don't expect your own family to hurl insults at you.

It's why I've been trying to get my mind off Kira. Maybe if I were to take a step back from Kira, I'd finally have a break from all the messages and hurt.

Almost every day this week, I've been ignoring Kira and going out with Ella. Which just happens to be Me, Ella, and Lucy most of the time.

I know Lucy likes me but I don't feel the same, even if I wanted to, I don't think I have it in me to find feelings for her.

But the distraction takes my mind off Kira. It's a win-lose situation but it's the best I'm gonna get so I'll take it.

It's Friday and I've just decided to stay home from classes. Seeing Kira after last night seems like not such a good idea.

The look on her face, as she saw Lucy place a kiss on my cheek, is forever imprinted in my mind. She looked so angry yet hurt all at the same time.

It's keeping me up at night.

"Do you wanna come grab some coffee with me?" Ella asked as she popped her head in through to my room.

I stayed curled up in bed. "I don't know." I shrugged.

"Come on B," she said. "Luce will be there." She said in a sing-song tone.

Knowing Lucy was coming along just made me hide even more. Every time she'd hold my hand or compliment me all I could think about was Kira.

She'd use pet names like darling and beautiful but none of them felt as good to hear as bella or Bambina did.

Every time she'd talk I missed the slight slip of an accent or the simple way Kira would say something and I'd get all giddy on the inside.

I'm trying to find it in me to get over her and find some sort of feelings for Lucy but there's nothing, absolutely nothing, it's like every time Ella even mentions her sister's name, all I can think about is how much it's hurting Kira.

"I don't know Ella," I said from underneath my sheets.

"Why? I thought we all had a good time last night." She asked softly and came to sit on the edge of my bed.