Belladonna | 18 +

Thirty eight | Moving out day & slip ups

It's been two weeks since I've talked to Kira. And once again to my own doing. I can't find it in me to just go talk to her.

I find it embarrassing. At least to me it's embarrassing to go and just say "I was influenced by my brother who had a load of shit to say." It just sounds like another excuse.

Even if it's the furthest thing from, it sounds so superficial and I can't apologise if I don't have a proper statement to support it all. I feel bad, extremely bad.

Christmas break is also really close. We have a few weeks to go; and I need to talk to Kira before that. I just...need to find the proper words.

And it's crazy to think that within these two weeks, even more has happened. Life is moving way too quickly for my liking. It's been a minute since Travis messaged me and I'm thankful for that.

And now, Ella is moving out. About two weeks ago, after I decided I'd wallowed enough Ella came to me and asked me a 'difficult question' at least to her it was difficult.

She asked if I'd be okay with her moving out and into Livia's apartment because Liv's roommate had moved out to a different building.

I wanted to jump at the idea but I kept it calm. If Ella was to move out Ava would have somewhere else to move instead of sleeping between her apartment where Felix brings in a new girl every week and Ivan's couch.

Ella explained all the reasons why she was moving, she wanted to be closer to Livia, she felt bad for not being around all the time and because her and Livia were more than just friends but they weren't together.

I took a moment before answering and finally agreed. She was happy and immediately she started packing, while she packed I told Ava she could move in.

One of the things that made the moving process so easy for both of them was that we weren't under leases. All we had to do was go to our colleges housing officer and got rooms change, sign a few agreements that stated we agreed to the change and it was a mutual decision.

It's one of the things I loved throughout all this.

So Ella moves out today and Ava moves in.

I'm excited to have my best friend closer. There's so many things we could do now, we wouldn't have to travel between each other so often and we could spend all night talking. Living with your best friend is very appealing in many aspects.

"I feel bad moving out," Ella said as she began packing all her stuff.

"Don't feel bad, it's okay. You're gonna be with Livia and I'll be with Ava." I shrugged "nothing really changes." I said.

"We'll have to make plans soon though." Ella said.

"You sound like you're moving states away." I chuckled. "It's just down the hall."

"Yeah but still, we've spent the last three months together." She sighed. "I'm leaving a piece of me behind." She pouted.

"We're still making plans Ella," I shook my head. "You and Liv will need a house warming right?" I lifted an eyebrow at her.

"Yes!" She said excitedly. "a perfect excuse to throw a little get together." She chuckled.

"Of course." I nodded and let her get back to packing.

While Ella packed, Zoë FaceTimed me—it was unexpected at first but once I realised I wasn't imagining it all I answered.

"Hey," I said through the phone.

"Hey B," she smiled. "how are you?"

"I'm good, FaceTime was a little unexpected." I chuckled.

"Yeah sorry about that, I wanted to catch up with you for a bit, how's life and what's it's been like?" She asked.