Rejected by one Alpha, Loved by another

Chapter 99: His naked body on mine

Chapter 99: His naked body on mine

Millie's POV

"But there is something we need to talk about"

I instantly hate how bad it sounds. I know I haven't been there. I understand that everything I have done has consequences but everything I have felt over the last few weeks was real right? It was all real.

"Everything felt so real" I tell him as we sit on this room. I've been too focused on studying and avoiding every mean girl in the university that I completely neglected my own care. Own health and well-being.

"Princess, you haven't been eating. You've survived on fuck knows what over the last few weeks and your body is taking a toll on itself. I was worried about you but you gotta stop pushing me away and talk to me" he says as he dries my hair.

Only my mom would ever dry my hair. The lake water is still there, I can smell the fresh air from it and it smells so nice. My body aches and everything in me is ready to argue and fight if needed be but I'm also so exhausted and I just want Kai to hold me.

Hold me tight and tell me everything is going to be okay.

"I think I need a shower" I tell him as I stand. Avoiding eye contact and any kind of conversation that will result in me finally snapping my mental state and having that breakdown that's been hanging there by a thread.

"Okay", he says and walks into his room.

Once the shower has been turned on and Kai has left the room, I strip down to nothing and enter his shower.

The steam in here rises and makes everything foggy but it's him that lingers in here.

His scent and his shampoo. Everything about him is here and I can't help myself by pushing bottle lids open and sniffing everything like a complete weirdo.

When I feel like I've sniffed his stuff enough, I start to pour some onto a loofa but the breeze from the door opening has me turning around to find a very naked Kai standing in the shower.

"Kai..." I whisper his name but he walks closer without a care in the world.

No shame.

Not even worried about my reaction as he takes the loofa from my very still hands and turns me around.

Moving my hair over one shoulder he kisses my neck. Right where his mating mark will go and he starts to scrub at my body. There is literally nothing sexual about this. He isn't doing it to get any kind of sexual reaction out of me it's a simple caring act that he is doing and it makes me want to cry.

"I remember when I was 7, my brother and I were climbing a tree" I say as he continues to scrub at my body like he's been doing it for years. "I got so close to the top, I was so excited because I couldn't do it before. My mom kept telling us to get down because one of us will get hurt, my sister kept laughing and telling me she would catch me if I fell but I felt this energy like I was invincible."

His chuckles makes me smile. I was always an active child whereas my sister preferred books and writing and enjoying herself by helping my mom bake.

She was always a bit of an introvert.

"What happened?" He asked and I felt like my childhood memories have been what's keeping me going whenever I felt so closed off from the world.

Like I needed a memory to escape to. From reality.

The only problem I had was that I had to come back to reality at some point and sometimes it would come crashing down at 100mph and hit me like a freight train.

"I fell. I did exactly what my mom had told me I would do and I broke my arm. It was so worth it but it hurt. A lot" I laugh at the memory.

My dad rushing out to chew me and my brother a new one until he saw the state of my arm.

His gag reflex kicked route and he almost threw up.

Thankfully my mom was always the one to be on the ball with that stuff and took me to the emergency room.

"I was in a cast for 6 weeks and then a smaller version of a cast for 3 weeks. It was safe to say my dad never allowed Reggie to take me up to the top of the tree again" I laugh and continue to lean into him. Only realising he's putting some shampoo in his hands and is rubbing it into my scalp. The sensation is so overwhelming that I feel tears spring to my eyes and I try my hardest to fight them off but this is another problem with going cold turkey off your tablets ... every high moment always comes with a few lows and I'm now coming off the high and experiencing my emotions in another light.

"What's wrong princess?"

"How can I be what you need me to be if I'm like this Kai? I don't understand"

"Millie ... look at me" he says and I do. I listen to him and I turn around, willing myself to not look down.

Do not look down, Millie.

Do. Not. Look. At. His. Dick.

I looked down.

I'm a sucker for this man in general but I couldn't help how my eyes kept straining and itching to look down and boy did they enjoy the view.

"Like what you see?" He says smirking and I feel heat rush to my cheeks.

"I-I wasn't-"

"You can look whenever you like Mills. I ain't hiding shit. I've already checked out your ass" he says so casually as he rinses his hands and tilts my head back under the shower head.

"In answer to your question Millie, I don't know. I want you. So fucking bad and I want you by my side. I won't reject you because of your issues. We all have scars. Some internal and some external but we all have them. And I'd be lying if I said I was perfect because I'm really not. I was bullied at school because I had Acne and I dressed like an emo-"

"You dressed like an emo?" I can't help but smile widely at that.

"I did. I was always so close to my brother at school and we did a lot together but he was popular and had girlfriend after girlfriend whereas I didn't lose my virginity until I was leaving college and I had ditched the emo look and my acne had vanished"

I smile up at his words which make me feel more relaxed and a little bit more comfortable with him but I still have so many doubts.

"You want me?" I ask nervously.

When his hands finish washing my hair, they slide back around my body and cup my cheeks before his lips are on mine in a soul-searching kiss that has my knees weak for this man.

"I want you. Kai Jr here wants you. And everyone here wants you. So please kiss me back woman" he says and I do. I rise to my tiptoes but he doesn't seem to like that idea and lifts me into his hands.

I'm completely naked and so horny but I don't care I want him to know all of me. Feel all of me. Have all of me.

"What do you want sweetheart?" He asks as he grips my bare ass and turns the shower off.

"I want you - to own me" I say breathlessly.

"Princess, I'm not mating with you until you have completed your degree"

"I have 4 exams left. I have 3 next week and my skating one in 2 weeks' time. I can leave college and be here and go there when I have my exams. I want you"

His grumble tells me I've got the mark and I'm about ready to leap into the air with excitement when he turns and walks out of the shower room with me in his arms and drops me onto his bed once again but this time he drops on top of me, kissing my neck and my chin before sliding his tongue over me and entering my mouth with a grunt.

I'm lying here on his bed. Naked.

His naked body on mine and pure excitement and nervousness hit me faster than I could have ever imagined.