Rejected by one Alpha, Loved by another

Chapter 49 - Past and Present

Esme's POV 

"so that's why Frankie and Max are here?" was all I could ask. How does somebody go from having a life of misery and pain to a life of good and happiness...just for it all to be broken back down to square one again! I can't be that person who subsides everything like I use to do! I won't be that person. I have made a life here and they can't seem to give me a break they had to get and get themselves killed by rogues and then leave us with the twins. The twins who enjoyed their life for years while mine was in shambles. They didn't know what was happening to us but they made it look as though we wasn't related when things got too tough for us.

I never thought I would end up in this situation. Being the Luna of the Midnight pack was never in my plans as I was always cast aside and told I wasn't good enough, I wasn't strong enough and I would never make a great Leader. I always thought I would just be a regular member of the pack, living a shitty life with my brother by my side. But fate had other plans for me and here we are now.

My mate, Jaxon, is the Alpha of this pack, He had ran this place for a few years and has never needed much guidance nor has he ever asked for any help but today seemed different, he seemed on edge about how to handle the situation at steak and together we lead our pack with love and compassion. But despite our strong bond and love for each other, there was one thing that always haunted me - my past.

Growing up, I had a loving family. My parents were regular members of our pack and my younger brother of 2 minutes, Finley, was always my best friend, Yeah we had other friends who we messed about with, went to the park with and Alpha Dylan was one of them but we always had each other. My older sister daisy was everybody's favourite including my mom and dads. First born child and all. We were a close-knit family and I couldn't have asked for anything more until it was all taken away from me on my 13th birthday. The remarks my father had made about me looking weak and how I wouldn't be a good enough pack member especially if my mate was here it would only seize to bring him and the pack down, so they banished me and Finley to the woods of our pack where even if a rogue got to the pack grounds they would get us first. That would be their signal to run in other terms.



Jaxon was the one who found me and brought me back to the pack. He showed me love and care, and eventually, we fell in love. But even with him by my side, I couldn't shake off the memories of my family and the pain of losing them.

And now, as the Luna of the Midnight pack, I had to face my past every day if these two was to stay here. I don't want them to go but If I let them stay then they will remind me of a place I don't want to visit again. My brother and sister were still a part of the pack, and seeing them was a constant reminder of what I had lost. I couldn't bring myself to face them, even though they had done nothing wrong.

Jaxon knew about my struggles and he tried his best to help me overcome them. He would hold me close and whisper words of comfort, but it was not enough this time. I felt like I was drowning in my own thoughts and emotions but those emotions didn't want to be brought to light so I drowned them into a dark place. I'm now 10 10 weeks pregnant and very heavily pregnant at that so everyone would think my hormones are everywhere but they're truly not right now.

I walked into our office with Jaxon and Finley both hot on my trails after Jaxon had told a maid to get them somewhere to stay and something to eat, My mind raced and my body reacted to thing's I didn't want it reacting to...emotions running high and tears threatening to spill down my face was raw. It was raw and it hurt. Finley was the first to speak, He believed that I needed to face them and try to build a relationship with them, while I thought it was best to keep my distance.

"Esme they are not old at all, if we throw them out then they will become rogues too and they won't last very long. I want them to stay"

"I get that I do but whenever I look at Max I see father. I see the hatred he had towards me Finn...I can't live a life like that I can't wake up every day and feel like I'm seeing our father okay I won't"

"Esme please...don't do this! I beg you don't separate them from us the way our parents did"

I remained silent and proceeded to be arguments after arguments.

"You know what it's like to be hurting Es!"

"YES! yes I do Finley because I protected you from every whip or slap or kick or punch, every black eye, every broken rib and every emotional humiliation thrown my way it was at me. I protected you from the abuse our parents gave me and Not you! ME! so don't come here and beg for shit like that because it's only going to make me mad" I say. The rage bubbling inside of me now spilling bit by bit.

"You bitch! If you let them go and they become rogues I'll never forgive you. NEVER!" is the last thing he said before he was thrown out of the office from Jaxon because he was throwing to much my way. We both had different opinions on what was right and it caused a rift between us.

Pacing back and forth, anger and tears falling out of my body I decided to try and run after Finley to tell him fine when I felt a pop. A pop that I remember all too well...A pop that notified me that my waters had broken. I'm only 10 weeks pregnant and I can't go into labour soon it's too soon.

"Jax...Jaxon no this can't be happening" I say through ragged breaths, my heart pulsing and my legs feeling heavy he carries me down stairs and as soon as we get outside I ask him to put me down, he does and as soon as he does the rest of my waters break, splashing all over and giving me a good soaked leg. He shouts for his mom and his dad who rush outside leaving Charlie and Hunter to run things here for the time being. Finley rushes outside but Jaxon orders him back in. Thankful that I haven't got to see anyone of my family members we take the car to the pack hospital instead of walking.

Jaxon was by my side, holding my hand and trying to calm me down. But the pain was unbearable now and I couldn't stop thinking about my siblings. fuck...even in labour they was on my mind.

As I pushed through the pain, I suddenly felt a surge of emotions. I realized that my siblings were my family, and no matter what had happened in the past, they were still a part of me. I wanted them to be a part of my child's life, and I wanted to make amends with them or should I say I want them to forgive me in time for even considering the thought of not accepting them. Is this the labour talking or my actual feelings...

With this newfound realization and after hours of trying to keep my breathing separate from my cries of pain I finally gave birth to a beautiful baby girl weighing 5lbs 8oz...we named her Delilah. Jaxon and I looked at her in awe, tears streaming down our faces. And in that moment, I knew that everything was going to be okay, well for now it was going to be okay.

After the birth, I reached out to Finley and asked him to come to the hospital with Max and Frankie to meet their niece and to also bring Reggie along too. I wanted them here I truly did.

After seeing them here for the first time and them meeting Delilah I began by apologising which lead to a heart-to-heart family conversation. We cried and hugged, and I apologized for pushing them away. They forgave me and we promised to be there for each other from that day on.

Finley and I also made up, realizing that our love was stronger than any disagreement.

As I held my daughter in my arms, surrounded by my family, I knew that I could overcome my past and fears with anything that happens in the future. I had found love, forgiveness, and a new family in the Midnight pack. And I couldn't be more grateful for everything that had happened, because it led me to this moment of pure happiness and love.