Rejected by one Alpha, Loved by another

Chapter 32 - Aftermath

Jaxon's POV

It's been 2 weeks since Esme got shot. 2 long and painful weeks. I haven't left her hospital bed since they allowed me to come in.

Everyone has been coming into the hospital room for weeks now and checking up and bringing me food so I have the strength to look after her when she finally wakes up because she will. She will wake up I have faith. I have to have faith that she will wake up. I say it like it's my mantra...Over and over again

"Esme baby it's me. It's Jax. I think it's time for you to wake up now okay" I tell her.

"Finley's here. He keeps telling me all these weird stories you two used to share when you were kids and it sounds really weird. But I guess that's just who you are. My weird little wolf" I say quietly.

It's been a further 7 hours and she's finally breathing for herself. And I can feel movement in her fingers. I look down and she's trying to move her fingers!

"Finley go get a doctor," I tell him as quietly as I can."Baby girl. I'm here okay. Take your time okay, you're doing amazing" I remind her. She's been through so much and I'm worried how this is going to affect her.

after 10 minutes of slowly prying her eyes open, she manages to look up at the ceiling, Squinting she notices how bright the light is but only manages the one word I've been waiting to hear for the last 2 weeks.

"Jax.." she says in a croaky voice, my goddess. I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding and I instantly felt the urge to pull her up and cuddle her. But I don't. I refrain from doing that. "Baby! I'm here okay I'm here and Finley will be back soon. Oh my goddess thank you.""My body hurts. What happened"

I try to tell her everything without crying like I have been doing but it's hard."Baby you were shot. Do you remember?" I ask, she shakes her head and then I make the hardest decision I have ever had to make. " You were shot in the belly and they managed to take the bullet out but...but the baby didn't survive" I tell her while I can't hold back the tears anymore.

"Wha...what do you mean the baby didn't survive" she says. Tears stream down her face and I can't look at her... over the next few minutes of the doctor explaining everything to her, she begins crying her heart out and I can tell her wolf's present as her eyes go black with gold rims and she lets out a heart-wrenching whine. I'm quick to stand up and cradle her because there isn't anything I can do to help her right now no matter how tough I want to just take her pain away. "I'm so sorry. Baby, I'm so so sorry" I tell her.

"Who would do this to me? Why would they do it" No amount of time can prepare someone for this moment. It's a hard choice someone has to make when a doctor informs you of the outcome that has happened. It doesn't make it any less harder when you tell them that you will do it, but here I am. I'm still sobbing beside her bedside when the door opens up and my mom, dad and Finley walk into the room. "Please go. Please everyone just go. Just leave me alone" she says, Her voice still hoarse like she's been in the Sahara desert for a week. She looks at me with an emptiness about her and I nod to the guys who all turn back around and leave us be. My heart is already breaking at the amount of pain she is going through but then she asks me to go. She would like to be on her own. I nod because there isn't anything I can do or say so I say the only thing that my brain allows me to say. "They got a few photos of him," I say while sliding my hand out of hers and placing the photos in her hand.

"He? We were having a boy?" She asks while gripping the photo "We were having a boy baby. He's beautiful" I tell her. She cradles the photo but tells me she needs to process this. I head outside and I break down the moment I shut the door and hear her crying. It's not a normal cry like she would do in the night after a nightmare, it isn't a cry she did when she got a little scared of someone, it's pained and filled with raw emotions and I can't comfort her at this time I don't know what to do. My heart is breaking but I've had 2 weeks to process this. She's just finding out how cruel this world is.