Teach Me How to Love Again (Sequel to Dirty Little Secret)

Chapter 5: You Are Not Useless (With Commentary)

*~(The title of this chapter is from Misguided Ghosts by Paramore.)~*

You know, I may have changed a lot since 2015 but one thing that hasn't gone away is my absolute obsession with Paramore. 3/5 chapters I've been through have Paramore titles, that's gotta be some kind of record, right? -2021 M

*~Frank's P.O.V.~*

I woke up to little sobs again. Skylar must be thinking about him again. I got out of bed and walked the short distance across the hallway from my room to hers. I tapped on her closed bedroom door, and I heard sniffles on the other side. HOW LOUD IS SHE CRYING IF HE CAN HEAR HER ACROSS THE HALLWAY? THOSE AREN'T LITTLE SOBS. THOSE ARE GRANDE SOBS. FULL ASS FOG HORN SOBS

"C-come in," she said weakly between sobs. I opened the door and entered her room. She was curled up in her bed, cuddled up to her pillow as she hid her face in it. She didn't want me to know she was crying. I felt so sorry for her. I hated seeing my best friend so sad. HER HEAD WAS IN A PILLOW TOO??? GIRL HOW LOUD WERE YOU CRYING??? TAKE A DEEP BREATH 

I sat at the foot of her bed, and she shifted slightly to make room for me. She buried her face deeper into her pillow. "I know you still miss him. It's alright, Sky. You don't have to hide it from me," I whispered. She finally let it all go and started bawling. I rubbed her back soothingly until her sobs died down at least a little bit. HOW IS SHE HIDING IT WHEN SHE'S CRYING AT THE VOLUME OF A JET ENGINE? GIRL ISN'T EVEN HIDING IT FROM THE NEIGHBORS

"I miss him so much," she bawled.

"I know you do. It's okay. It's gonna take a lot of time to be okay again, but I'm here for you," I said.

"I just... I feel so useless! Why didn't he want me?"

"Hey, hey. You are not useless. It's his fault for letting go of somebody as amazing as you."

"I just want it to be the way it used to be," she whimpered. GIRL HOW DID IT USED TO BE?? HE'S LITERALLY ALWAYS BEEN AN ASSHOLE 

"Don't think about what it used to be. Just remember that he's an asshole who cheated on you. You can't think about the past. You have to remember that he's not like that anymore." UHHH HE WAS NEVER GOOD IN THE FIRST PLACE

Mikey tells me about Gerard, because he's not allowed to tell Sky. Gerard is pretty broken about this too. As well he should be. That asshole deserves whatever he gets. Nobody gets away with hurting my best friend. He's lucky I didn't beat the shit out of him and his stupid face. I'd love to knock out those fucking tiny teeth. DO IT KING. I'LL HELP. I'LL WRITE THIS IN RN LET'S GO

I'm glad Eliza isn't going to let him see his baby. He doesn't deserve any happiness from this.

If he weren't a teacher, I probably would punch his stupid face. Nobody gets away with hurting my best friend. DO IT ANYWAY BESTIE

"Cheer up. You're turning eighteen in a week or two! We graduate next month! Also, prom is this month. Aren't girls into that shit?" I joked. Sky smiled a little bit, which made me happy.

"I-I'm not going to prom," she sighed.

"What? You have to go!"

"I can't. I don't want another reminder of how fucking lonely I am."

"You have to go! I'll shit my pants and not be able to approach Jamia if you don't go!"

"I'll help you ask her out. You don't need my help at the actual prom. That's the easy part!"

"That's not the easy part! I get so nervous around her! I'll probably pass out the first time I make make eye contact with her if you're not around! I need you around to make sure I don't make an ass of myself!" me around pretty women too

"I'll think about it," she gave in. Although, Sky's so stubborn, that's basically a no.

Prom was actually going to be on the day after her eighteenth birthday.

Mikey, Kristin, Ray, Denise and I have been secretly planning Sky's birthday. We're gonna surprise her somehow, but we haven't worked out the details yet. We don't even know what we're buying her yet, but we know we have to make it special. Not only is it a milestone birthday, but she deserves some happiness in her life. don't even get me started on my eighteenth birthday oh boy. 

None of us knew what she'd really want. She doesn't talk about her interests much. Mikey suggested a gift card to Hot Topic, but I wanted to do something more personal than that. I still needed to think about what to get her. HAHAHAHAHA NOT HOT TOPIC I THOUGHT I WAS JOKING IN THE SHIRT CHAPTER

"C-can we miss school today? I didn't sleep very good last night," Sky mumbled sleepily. I was gonna lecture her here for missing so much school but honestly I was the same way in senior year. More power to you, bestie. Fight the man. 

"Of course. It's Friday anyway. I could use a long weekend," I said. I could tell she was starting to drift back to sleep, so I patted her back, then I started to leave her room. WHY WOULD YOU PAT HER BRO YOU'RE GONNA WAKE HER BACK UP AND THEN THE JET ENGINES ARE GONNA START UP AGAIN

"Thanks, Frank. You always know how to make me feel better," she said. I smiled in appreciation, then I turned off her light, shut her door, and went back to bed.

It's going to take a long time, but I know Sky will be okay again. She's good at bouncing back.