Teach Me How to Love Again (Sequel to Dirty Little Secret)

Chapter 7: Tried to Forget You, I Can't Forget You (With Commentary)

*~(The title of this chapter is from Shut Up by blink-182.)~*

I gotta say, 2015 M, your song choices hold up. *chef's kiss* -2021 M

*~Gerard's P.O.V.~*

It was the same day, but now I had just gotten back from work. Sky hadn't shown up to school today, so that was good. I'm sick of our awkward run-ins in the hallways. Uhhh how did he know she didn't show up and wasn't just avoiding the areas he frequents????? creep.

Right now, I was on the phone with a very angry Eliza.

"Eliza, I swear to God I'll get a lawyer!" I yelled into the phone.

"Why are you denying this? You know we had sex that day! Are you in denial that you actually cheated on that whore?" Eliza scoffed. DAMN OKAY 

"Do not fucking call Skylar a whore!" I snapped, the angry tone of my voice even surprising me.

"Why? Didn't you two have like, a lot of sex? She's totally a whore." HAHAHAHA NOBODY TALKS LIKE THIS WHY DID I WRITE THIS

"We had a lot of sex because we loved each other! We were in a relationship! That's what you do when you're in love! How does that make her a whore?" "That's what you do when you're in love" god it makes me sad how warped my view of love was in 2015. LOTS OF SEX DOES NOT EQUAL LOVE, GUYS!!! AND NO SEX DOES NOT EQUAL NO LOVE!!! Some people are asexual or uncomfortable with sex, and that doesn't make their relationships any less valid! okay back to funny

"If you two really loved each other so much, you wouldn't have cheated on her," Eliza laughed. yeah

"Cheating on her was the biggest mistake I ever made," I mumbled. nah, you freed the poor girl

"Are you calling our son a mistake?" she asked, faking disgust in me. She's horrible at faking shit. yeah

"I don't even think he's my son. Which is why I'm gonna get a fucking lawyer if I have to," I snapped again.

"You go ahead and get a lawyer. You're only going to find out that he is your son." I want them to take this shit to Maury. I'm grabbing my popcorn. 

"If you're so confident he's my son, why won't you get the test?" I asked suspiciously. I had been trying to convince her to get a paternity test now that Mikey had brought up all of those points.

"Because it would be a waste of money," she chuckled. "I already know he's your son. Why would I pay to have somebody tell me what I already know?" MAURY! MAURY! MAURY! MAURY! MAURY!

"I'll pay for the test then. I'm sure you're perfectly alright with wasting my money. What's your excuse now?"

She paused momentarily as if she were actually thinking of what to say before speaking. "Fine. If you really want me to get the fucking test, I'll do it. You're only going to find out that he is your son. You're going to feel so stupid," she laughed.

"Fine. I'm gonna take a trip to New Jersey, so I can pay and witness the test in person. That way you can't fucking lie to me," I said. Just keep your dick in your pants this time bestie

"Fine then. You'll see," she scoffed, then she hung up on me. I sighed and got onto my laptop to look for plane tickets to New Jersey.

If this kid isn't mine, maybe I'll be able to get Sky back. BRO YOU STILL CHEATED ON HER!! WHETHER OR NOT THE KID IS YOURS HAS ALMOST NOTHING TO DO WITH IT!!

If he is mine, I'm fucking screwed. Now I've pissed Eliza off by forcing her to get a test, so there's no way she'd let me see my son now. She'd have full custody within a week.

Why can't life be easy? If it were easy, I would have never been fucking stupid enough to cheat on Sky, so I'd still have her, and I'd never have to deal with Eliza again. 

I've already cheated in so many relationships. Back in the days when I'd break so many girls' hearts, I'd cheat on them too. Maybe I'm nothing but a cheater. I'm starting to think I'm incapable of being faithful. No wonder nobody loves me. YEAH BECAUSE YOU'RE A PREDATOR!! A SERIAL PREDATOR!!! COME ON I KNEW THIS 3 CHAPTERS INTO BOOK 1 PLEASE KEEP UP 

Sky tried to love me, and look where that got her. She got her heart broken. I broke the heart of the sweetest, kindest, most gorgeous girl on Earth. I'm awful.

What if I hurt her so badly she changes? What if she suddenly stops being so kind and sweet? One of my favorite traits about her was how she saw the good in everybody and every situation. What if she loses that because I hurt her? I'm sure she sees no good in me. I don't even see good in myself. Bro she was mean to teachers for fun

I wish I could talk to Frank, so I could make sure Skylar's okay, because Mikey won't tell me about her. She seems fine at school, but what if that's an act? I don't want my baby hurting over me. MY BABY????? BRO YOU'RE BROKEN UP YOU CREEP

What if I really am incapable of being faithful? What if I eventually get Sky back, and I cheat on her? WHY ARE YOU JUMPING SO FAR AHEAD BRO YOU DON'T EVEN HAVE HER

I guess I don't have to worry about that. It's not like I'll ever get Sky back. Why would she want a man who's nothing but unfaithful? oops he said it 

I tried to forget her at first, so that it wouldn't hurt this bad, but it never worked. I'll never forget Sky.