my kpop weight loss diary

reality check

It's mid May.

I can't believe it.

I'm literally a year older now... and somehow still in the same weight range.

53kg. 54kg. Back and forth. Again and again.

And I keep asking myself... why?

Why do I lack so much self-control?
Why can't I just stay consistent like other people?
Why do I always get close and then mess it up?

Right now I'm at 53.3kg.

My goal was to be 50kg by May.

And I'm not even close.

That hurts to admit.

I really thought this year would be different. I thought I would finally "lock in" and just do it properly.

But here I am again.

And now I'm looking at July... and I don't even know how I'm supposed to reach my goal by then.

It feels far, but at the same time, time is moving so fast.

I don't want to sit here and hate myself.

But I also don't want to keep repeating the same cycle forever.

So I guess this is another turning point.

Not a perfect start.
Not a perfect plan.

Just... trying again.

And maybe this time, actually sticking to it.

Also maybe I should start doing WIEIAD chapters #selfhumiliation 🫪 (just joking) (or maybe not...)
I'll see what I can do