It's not just complicated, it's a disaster

Disaster (Chapter Four)

Chapter Four

I was nervous for Tara. She was going to take to the pregnancy test this afternoon after school; we both had to get through the school day first. I felt bad that Blake didn’t know. He should know, and I knew it, but Tara didn’t want him to until she was certain.

“So what’s bothering you today?” Blake whispered to me, during study.

“The normal stuff,” I shrugged.

“No, no,” he shook his head. “It’s something else, because you pretend you’re not upset over Zeke, and the stress is clear in your face about the exams, and now there’s something else.”

“It’s nothing you need to worry about,” I muttered.

“Since when, I always worry about you, and you know it,” Blake said.

“Well, maybe for once I’d rather you didn’t try and get in on my problems,” I said harshly.

Blake gave me a look but then nodded and looked down. He started playing with his pen and then looked up slightly and the quickly looked away hoping I hadn’t noticed.

“What?” I asked.

He didn’t answer and I turned around to see Zeke walk in with Harriet and Kassidy. I don’t know what happened them. I suddenly felt angry, felt like crying, felt like throwing something across the room or maybe even breaking a window.

“Why is she hanging out with Zeke?” I muttered.

“I think Kassidy is hanging out with Harriet,” Blake corrected me.

“She hasn’t even been here that long... you don’t think Harriet is trying to replace me, do you?” I muttered.

“No... Alex you can’t be replaced, especially Harriet couldn’t replace you. You’re one of a kind,” Blake told me.

“How exactly?” I asked.

“Well, I mean no one, and I mean no one could be more obsessed with paramore then you. You literally eat, breath and sleep it, it’s ridiculous... that and you have this ability to one minute be all quiet and then really loud.... and the sense that you help someone... now I could go on,” he said.

“I get it, okay? I’m Alexandra Rodes and there is only one of her,” I said.

“Exactly,” Blake nodded.

I wasn’t going to let Zeke or that Kassidy girl get to me, even though Kassidy hadn’t done anything to me yet. Actually the other day she lent me her English notes... that’s beside the point though. I just went home that day, it wouldn’t bother me... I wasn’t going to let it. Tara wouldn’t be home yet, she was buying the test, I’d meet her at home.

“I just wish you two would do it and get it over with,” I said.

I found Claire, quite literally on top of Pommy, her hands kind of gripping to his hair, while her lips stayed pressed on his. I had to ruin their moment; it was a lot of fun to just to see their faces.

Claire broke away from Pommy immediately and sighed before looking at Pommy then up at me. You’d be surprised to know that Claire and Pommy haven’t slept together, which is odd for someone who is Claire and has probably slept with more guys than I could count. Apparently they were taking it slow.

“Don’t you have you own life, do you have to constantly interrupt mine?” she asked.

“It’s just when you two go all public around the house it interferes with my life. Besides, I thought you had to work Pommy,” I said.