It's not just complicated, it's a disaster

Disaster (Chapter Thirty Seven)

Chapter Thirty Seven

I was warm under not only the covers of a bed, but in the arms of another. I let myself shift slightly, and the arms around me tightened on my bare skin. I rolled over slightly more again, and felt my arm lean up against something solid. Muscles... perfect muscles.

My lips curved into a smile and last night flooded back into my head.... as yesterday flooded back into me.

“Why are you so happy?”

My eyes flung open. I wasn’t aware that Zeke was awake, and watching me. He leant up slightly, just hovering over my head.

“I was thinking,” I muttered.

“About?” Zeke smiled slightly.

“You... yesterday... last night,” I answered.

“Oh,” he smiled again. “That’s okay then.”

He stared down at me for a second but then reached in and started kissing me. I felt the palms of my hands rest on his chest as I felt his hand tighten on my waist. So the last time I was like this may have been with Blake, but I couldn’t compare any of this to Blake. Not only was I aware of what I was doing, I was with someone I love.

I pulled away from me and he just rested his head near mine.

“What?” he whispered.

I shrugged. “I just had a bad feeling.”

“A bad feeling about what?” Zeke frowned.

“About... waking up, and maybe you... regretting all of it,” I admitted.

“Alex,” he sighed, moving back slightly. “I would be insane to regret any moment with you.”

“I just thought that maybe you didn’t forgive me,” I whispered.

He sighed again and lied back next to me. “At first I was angry,” he told me. “At first I couldn’t believe that this would happen, that you would do this.... then I saw you when Austin tried to... well you know, and so part of me thought I shouldn’t help. I thought I should let you get what you deserved, but then I reminded myself of one thing... I still love you. And then well you went away and I thought that this would be exactly what I need, but after just a day of you being gone, I wanted you back. So... I decided to talk to Blake.”

“You what?!”  I asked, sitting up.

“Calm down, Alex,” Zeke said, sitting up with me. “We just talked, I swear... I only thought about hurting him, I didn’t actually hurt him.”

“You better not have... it’s not his fau-,” I started to say

“Don’t you say it wasn’t his fault. He told me what happened,” Zeke said. “Yes, you were both highly intoxicated but Blake told me he made the first move.”

“He... I,” I thought about arguing, but as I opened my mouth, it flooded back to me.

I remembered being in Blake’s room, talking about Zeke... and he... he kissed me.

“I was talking about us,” I told Zeke. “I was talking about the fight we had at the airport.... that’s why I agreed to go out drinking.”

Zeke hung his head slightly. “That fight should’ve never happened. It was stupid.”

“Now it is stupid,” I agreed, “but then it was a big deal.”

“I want you to use the money I have, Alex. Why wouldn’t you let me pay for anything else?” he asked me.