I lost, but i fought || J.B

chapter 2

i nodded and Karen walked out of the room. i can't be adopted.... what about Ella who will take care of her? who will comfort her when she has nightmares? and Rosie i will miss her so much, she is my only friend.

i packed all of my clothes in a bag and my guitar in my guitar-bag. then i had everything packed and i was ready to go. i looked at Ella who was playing with her toys, not knowing that she would probably never see me again. a tear fell down my cheek, but i removed it quickly with my hand. i walked over to Ella and picked her up and held her close to me for the very last time. she hugged me back and looked at me with a big smile i had to smile back she was too cute.

"i'm gonna miss you baby girl" i whispered in her ear. "i love you very, very much" i continued. "i'm not gonna be here any more. i'm gonna live somewhere else now" i whispered even lower. "i'm not gonna be here too sing to you anymore, or comfort you when you have nightmares" i said as a sob escaped my lips. i think Ella was starting to understand what was going to happen because she started to cry. "i'm sorry baby girl" i said and hugged her even tighter. another tear fell down my cheek, but this time i let it fall.

after about 10 minutes of crying with Ella someone disturbed our alone time.

"you ready?" some boy said standing in the doorway. i nodded and took my bag over my shoulder and my guitar-bag in my hand. i was still holding Ella. i walked out to the big hallway and towards the staircase.

when i came downstairs the whole family except the boy was standing in the door talking to Karen. they all looked at me and smiled, but i didn't smile back i hugged Ella even tighter to body. Ella was still crying and it broke my heart. i was standing next to Karen. she reached for Ella, but Ella just hugged my body tighter. i kissed the top of her head and gave her to Karen. she started to cry even harder and reached hands out towards me, wanting me to hold her again. i just looked down at my feet. i knew if i looked up at her i would start crying.

just as we were about to go i heard a little voice scream my name. i turned to see Rosie running towards me. i bent down to her level. when she was right in front of me she looked me in the eyes.

"i'm gonna miss you so much Lucy" she whispered. i hugged her tight to my body. "please take care of Ella for me" i said so low in her ear that no one could hear that i even said something. "i will" she said in a sob. i pulled away and looked at her, but she was looking at my t-shirt. after a while she looked at me. "i love this t-shirt" she pointed at my t-shirt. "me too" i whispered in her ear.

i stood up and did something really unexpected. no i didn't talk out loud.. i took of my t-shirt, leaving me in my tank top. Rosie looked at me shocked as i pulled it over her head. i bent down again and hugged her.

"don't forget me okay?" she nodded. "i love you." i whispered and pointed to my lips wanting a kiss. she gave me a small kiss on my lips and i stood up.

i picked up my guitar-bag. Mr. Beadles was holding my bag. we walked towards their car and in the back-round i could hear Rosie screaming my name and crying. and Ella was crying too. a tear fell down my cheek i wiped it away quickly, but then another one fell and another one. i couldn't take it anymore i broke down crying on the ground. The girl took my guitar-bag quietly and walked after her dad and brother. Mrs. beadles stood over me trying to comfort me.

after 5 minutes of crying on the ground i stood up and walked to the car. i was a little embarrassed of my little brake-down. i sat in the car besides the boy, looking out the window. then we started driving.

Bye Rosie. Bye Ella. i love you! i thought to myself

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