i nodded and Karen walked out of the room. i can't be adopted.... what about Ella who will take care of her? who will comfort her when she has nightmares? and Rosie i will miss her so much, she is my only friend.
i packed all of my clothes in a bag and my guitar in my guitar-bag. then i had everything packed and i was ready to go. i looked at Ella who was playing with her toys, not knowing that she would probably never see me again. a tear fell down my cheek, but i removed it quickly with my hand. i walked over to Ella and picked her up and held her close to me for the very last time. she hugged me back and looked at me with a big smile i had to smile back she was too cute.
"i'm gonna miss you baby girl" i whispered in her ear. "i love you very, very much" i continued. "i'm not gonna be here any more. i'm gonna live somewhere else now" i whispered even lower. "i'm not gonna be here too sing to you anymore, or comfort you when you have nightmares" i said as a sob escaped my lips. i think Ella was starting to understand what was going to happen because she started to cry. "i'm sorry baby girl" i said and hugged her even tighter. another tear fell down my cheek, but this time i let it fall.
after about 10 minutes of crying with Ella someone disturbed our alone time.
"you ready?" some boy said standing in the doorway. i nodded and took my bag over my shoulder and my guitar-bag in my hand. i was still holding Ella. i walked out to the big hallway and towards the staircase.
when i came downstairs the whole family except the boy was standing in the door talking to Karen. they all looked at me and smiled, but i didn't smile back i hugged Ella even tighter to body. Ella was still crying and it broke my heart. i was standing next to Karen. she reached for Ella, but Ella just hugged my body tighter. i kissed the top of her head and gave her to Karen. she started to cry even harder and reached hands out towards me, wanting me to hold her again. i just looked down at my feet. i knew if i looked up at her i would start crying.
just as we were about to go i heard a little voice scream my name. i turned to see Rosie running towards me. i bent down to her level. when she was right in front of me she looked me in the eyes.
"i'm gonna miss you so much Lucy" she whispered. i hugged her tight to my body. "please take care of Ella for me" i said so low in her ear that no one could hear that i even said something. "i will" she said in a sob. i pulled away and looked at her, but she was looking at my t-shirt. after a while she looked at me. "i love this t-shirt" she pointed at my t-shirt. "me too" i whispered in her ear.
i stood up and did something really unexpected. no i didn't talk out loud.. i took of my t-shirt, leaving me in my tank top. Rosie looked at me shocked as i pulled it over her head. i bent down again and hugged her.
"don't forget me okay?" she nodded. "i love you." i whispered and pointed to my lips wanting a kiss. she gave me a small kiss on my lips and i stood up.
i picked up my guitar-bag. Mr. Beadles was holding my bag. we walked towards their car and in the back-round i could hear Rosie screaming my name and crying. and Ella was crying too. a tear fell down my cheek i wiped it away quickly, but then another one fell and another one. i couldn't take it anymore i broke down crying on the ground. The girl took my guitar-bag quietly and walked after her dad and brother. Mrs. beadles stood over me trying to comfort me.
after 5 minutes of crying on the ground i stood up and walked to the car. i was a little embarrassed of my little brake-down. i sat in the car besides the boy, looking out the window. then we started driving.
Bye Rosie. Bye Ella. i love you! i thought to myself
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FanfictionThe little Norwegian girl that lived in Karen's Orphanage for boys and girls. She keeps her mouth shut for the most of the time, she's too scared to speak and it doesn't matter anyway, no one wants to adopt a 15 year old, Except Sandy and Will Beadl...