I lost, but i fought || J.B

Chapter 36

after a big struggle of getting Justin up in my bed i fell asleep after a good birthday, better than expected. Fredo went, to wherever he is staying, and i went to sleep next to Justin. Always a joy, knowing he is right next to me.

waking up face too face with a naked chest and way too warm, is starting to be a habit of mine now, i'm getting used too it, and i quite enjoy it actually, or except the too warm part, but being face to face to a naked chest is really not bothering me as much as it used too. Justin didn't know that i often woke up in the middle of the nigh very close to him, feeling very uncomfortable. sometimes so uncomfortable that i had to scoot away, but not anymore, i'm comfortable in his arms, him naked or not. Okay, maybe i would have a problem with it if he was completely naked, trying to poke me with his penis, but in his boxers, i really don't have a problem with it anymore.

i carefully climb out of bed and put on a white T-shirt, a black blazer and some black/grey ripped jeans. my hair is naturally curled and my make up is light, just winged eyeliner and mascara. i put on the ring that Justin gave me yesterday and a treble clef necklace that i got from Lucas when i was 10 and just had started singing. 

"Justin, Wake up" i say lightly shaking him awake.

"no" he groans turning around.

"but we are visiting Zoe" i say happily.

"let's sleep some more" he says dragging me down with him. i giggle as he pulls me close to him.

"no" i say putting my hands on his chest and push him, but he doesn't budge. i get out of his tight grasp and climb out of bed. "i'm not very hungry, so i'm making smoothies for breakfast, want some?"

"mhm" he mumbles down in his pillow.

"be down in 10, or i will go without you" i say walking out of the room. i walk downstairs to find no one, so i just quietly start making smoothies.

after 10 minutes like i said Justin comes walking down while putting his shirt on.

"right on time" i say handing him his to-go cup of smoothie. he leans down and pecks my lips quickly.

"thank you" he says.

"let's just leave, i bet she is super bored. is it okay if we stop by the mall and bye some magazines and stuff for her?" i ask walking around trying to find my car keys.

"sure, you're keys are there" he says pointing too one of the shelves in the kitchen.

"oh, thank you" i say pecking his lips when i walk past him. "can i drive?" i ask excitingly.

"of course you can" he starts, and i smile widely. "if-" he cuts me off and my smile fades a little. "i get a kiss" he finishes with a cheeky smile on his lips.

"dork" i say walking up to him, my cup in one hand and keys in the other, i put my hands around his neck.  "my dork" i whisper before standing on tip-toes and kissing him passionately. he kisses me back with just as much passion, his arms on my waist pulling me closer too him. our kiss is sweet and loving.

on our way to the mall we just chat, normal small talk, Justin giving me directions from time too time.

"so we were playing inside grampa's house, and he has this collection of stuffed animals. we managed to knock one of the animals foot over, we blamed it on each other, but at the end we blamed it on-" he was cut off by my phone ringing, i take a quick glance at it and see that the caller ID is 'Alfie!'. Justin is looking at me closely, probably wondering if i'm going to take it or not, him thinking that i shouldn't. I quickly pick my phone up and answer before Justin can even react.

"Hi, Alfie" i greet nicely into the phone.

"hello, Hannah" he greets, i look to the side and see Justin staring at me shocked, but you can tell he disapproves with my decision. always caring about safety, not that, that is a bad thing, but he over reacts sometimes. "you're going to the hospital, right?" he asks.

"yes, we're on our way to the mall right now, just getting some stuff" i say, putting my phone between my ear and shoulder, needing both my hands too swing into the parking lot to the mall.

"oh, that's nice. do you mind picking me up on the way, mom needed the car, and since you drive past me, i was just wondering if you could pick me up?" he asks.

"of course, we'll be there in 20" i reply happily.

"thank you, bye"

"bye" i reply. I just lift my head and let the phone fall down in my lap as i'm trying to concentrate on the road. i find a unoccupied parking space, and easily park there. "there" i say proud when i did it perfectly. i look at Justin and he is looking at me still disappointed. "what?" i ask even though i know why he is looking at me like that.

"you could have killed us" he says strictly.

"sorry" i say guiltily, because i know that i could've.

"why did you answer?" he asks while we get out of the car

"because yesterday Alfie promised he would call if something happened, and i'm a curious person" i answer while locking the car door. "but he just wanted a lift to the hospital" i shrug.

"okay" he answers walking next too me on our way into the mall.

"are you mad at me?" i ask looking up at him.

"no, i can't be mad at my babe" he smiles, putting his arm around me and pulling me close to him. i giggle.

we literally bought every gossip and fashion magazine in the store. and after picking up Alfie we arrived the hospital. we are currently waiting for the elevator to arrive at our floor.

"i'm claustrophobic" i say quickly.

"me too" Justin replies just as quick. we both look at each other, and smile a reassuring smile, either trying to reassure our self or the other, maybe both. he squeezes my hand when the elevator plings indicating that it is here. i take a deep breath, walk inside the elevator hand in hand with Justin, we let Alfie do all the clicking of buttons. i stand there my eyes squeezed shut, my body stiff and squeezing the living shit out of Justin's hand.

"cute" i hear Alfie say from besides us.

"what? why?" i say opening on of my eyes but just too close them again when i see the small room we're in.

"you and Justin, you're standing just the same way, and you're not even aware of it" he say, i immediately open my eyes and look at justin and he really is standing just like me. eyes squeezed shut, body stiff and he is squeezing my hand, but i didn't really notice the hand squeezing until now because i was squeezing his too. i stand on my tip-toes and kiss his cheek.

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outfit on the side. obviously the ring is the one Justin gave her, just in case some of you didn't get that.

actually i lied, shit isn't going down till next time :3

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