I lost, but i fought || J.B

Chapter 43

i wake with a jolt, my hand flying up to my mouth and i run for the bathroom. i bend over the toilet and throw up.

when i'm finished puking my gut out i sit down against the wall. my head is throbbing, my stomach is feeling queasy and i think i have a fever.

"Hannah? are you okay? did you just throw up?" a worried Justin asks from out side the bathroom. just as i open my mouth to talk, i throw up again. "god, Hannah" Justin says as he enters the bathroom, he leans down and holds my hair back, while stoking my back. I stayed here the night, we have decided that i'm going to stay here all week, until he leaves for tour.

when i finish throwing up for the second time, Justin helps me to my feet, i find it hard to stand so i support myself on him, hugging him tight. i've never been sick like this before, i've just had colds and small headaches and stuff. I've never felt like this before, so weak, not even when i was raped, abused or alone. it scares me. i sob into Justin shoulder, how can i feel this weak?

"i'm scared" i sob.

"hey, hey, hey why?" he asks rubbing my back.

"i've never felt this weak before, it's scary"

"let's get you some meds" he says pulling away and wiping my tears. i nod, and start walking towards the bedroom, but Justin lifts me up bridal style, i would fight against it, but i'm too tired. "i'll be right back, okay" he says as he puts me to bed.

i can hear Justin and Pattie talking downstairs, i can't hear what they are saying, but Justin sounds annoyed and Pattie sound worried. i can hear two people run up the stairs, i guess it's Justin and Pattie.

"Hannah, i'm so sorry, but Scooter is forcing me to come to the studio" he says sitting down on the bed and stroking my hair.

"it's okay" i say, my voice is hoarse and weak.

"i'm so sorry, mom will take care of you, I love you" he says kissing my forehead.

"i love you" i reply, my voice no different than the other time. he walks out if the door giving me one last sympathetic smile, i smile back.

"Sweetie, what's wrong?" pattie asks me sitting down exactly where Justin had been sitting. "Justin just said you were ill" she smiles stroking my hair.

"I threw up, i feel weak and i think i have a fever, because it's warm in here, but i'm freezing" i explain to her.

"I'll get the meds you need, then you sleep for a little hour and you should feel stronger" she says getting up and walking downstairs. i can't believe Justin is leaving in three days. on Friday, today it's Tuesday.

after i napped for one hour i felt better, not good, but better. at least i could stand up by myself.

"hi Pattie" i greet her mildly as i enter the kitchen.

"hey, shouldn't you be in bed?" she asks me.

"i guess, but i couldn't sleep anymore, and i feel a little better" i shrug. "i'm kinda bored, you know something i can do?" i ask her.

"Justin usually plays in the screening room" she offers.

"screening room?" i ask confused, never heard that word before.

"i'll show you" she offers starting to walk down the hall, i follow her. "here, open the door" she tells me gesturing towards the door. i open the door and i immediately recognize the room as the one me and Justin had our first kiss in. it's almost like a cinema, just more private and a little bit smaller screen.

"oh, i've been here before" i say flustered.

"you know how to play xbox?" she asks. i nod, because when i was twelve me and Lucas used to play, we also played Zelda, which is also a reason i got the triforce tattoo. "i'll start the projector and put it on the right setting, and you'll find the game you want to play and fix it from there, alright?" she asks, i nod exited. she starts pressing on different remotes. i notice that he also has a Wii, so maybe he has Zelda too. "so now you can just start" she says.

"can i play Wii, maybe?" i ask her carefully.

"yes, of course, you just press this button to change the channel and you can change back with this one" she says showing me which buttons to press.

"okay, thank you" i smile. she smiles back and i head over to the drawers wit the games in. i open the one labeled with 'Wii games' and start looking. he has 'the legend of Zelda Twilight princess', but i have already played through that, when i think i've seen through everything and decide to look in the drawer labeled with 'Xbox games' something caught my eye, 'the legend of zelda skyward sword' is this a new zelda game? i take it and look at it. i guess it's new or at least from the last three years, because i haven't seen it before. i decide that it is worth giving it a try and start the Wii and put the game in.

"Hannah?" Pattie suddenly say from the door. i squeal in surprise. pattie laughs a little. "i got this call, my friend needs some help, do you think you'll survive about four hours alone?" she asks hesitantly.

"yeah, i have this to entertain me" i gesture to the room.

"okay, there is three tablets on the kitchen counter, take them 1 pm sharp" she says pointing at me threateningly. "take them with water or juice, nothing else" she says.

"thank you Pattie" i say looking at her.

"you're welcome baby" she says walking up to me and kissing my forehead. "Justin will be back in four hours, i'll probably be longer" she says, i nod.

"bye" i wave at her.

"1 pm sharp" she reminds me again and i nod. "bye" she giggles. Pattie is such a sweet lady, always welcoming and loving. i sit down in one of the comfortable chairs and start the game, oh how i've missed this. when me and Lucas played, he would play and i would be the brains, always tell him what and where to go next. how to beat the boss, it was how we worked, we were a team.

after only a few minutes of playing, i find out that playing the game is not even that hard.

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