Colors

~ Chapter 21~

Halsey's POV

She wondered whether or not she should tell Ryan that she was pregnant. Or at least thinks she's pregnant. What would he think of her then? That she's a slut? Ryan would never think that. He has always out her before anyone else. She always took advantage of that. She hated herself for doing that. So, she can't ask him for help.

Brendon offered her to move into his house. She didn't want to leave her apartment. She's been living in it since she even moved to New York. It was the best place for her and Josh. Two rooms. One for her and Josh, another for their music. She'd have to leave that behind. Josh was still paying his half of the bills. Soon, she'd have to leave a note saying that she was leaving. She doesn't even know whether or not she should leave.

She laid on Brendon's bed. She was very familiar with it. She liked his house. It was perfect for a small family like them. Just the three of them. Her being pregnant wouldn't have been terrible if her and Brendon never broke up in senior year. So many things would've been better if she wasn't broken up with certain people.

" Brendon!" She called. He was in his music room. She could hear loud music playing through the walls. She hoped that wouldn't be a problem if she were taking naps. Suddenly, she felt the urge to throw up again. She quickly ran to the nearest bathroom and vomited in the toilet.

Ryan's POV

He hovered over Halsey's contact name. He really wanted to call her. H wanted to apologize again and again and again. He remembered when Spencer betrayed him when he was still going after Helena. Halsey is probably experiencing the same hurt feeling. He pressed on the call button anyways. The phone rang many times. He thought it was gonna go to voicemail.

" Hello?" She sounded like she was sick or has been crying. Well, he could see why she'd be crying.

" Are you okay?" He asked her.

" Of course not. I'm broken up with the love of my life. I have to move out. I'm pregnant. My career is soon going to fall apart. And I'm moving out my apartment," she said. She sounded so angry. He didn't realize she said that she was pregnant until after a huge moment of silence.

" Wait a second....Did you just say you're pregnant, Halsey?"

" Yes. I'm fucking pregnant and you can blame Brendon because he was the last person I had sex with and he's the reason I'm leaving my apartment to Josh and becoming a full-time mother," she said before immediately hanging up before he could even open his mouth. His eyes were wide. He didn't even know what to say or think. Halsey? A mother of Brendon's kids? It didn't sound right at all.

***

Z was finally home. She said she bought some Chinese food on the way home. Ryan sat on the stairs. Z noticed him sitting there. She put her coat on the rack by the door. She walked over to him, with her arms crossed.

" What's wrong?" She asked him. He shook his head. It hurt him even thinking about it. He didn't even know why he was so hurt about it. He was with Rose. But hearing that the girl he's loved for the longest time get impregnated by another man hurt. He always wished that he and Halsey never broke up or went separate ways. They would've been having the kid together. " Please tell me. If it's something I did-"

" No. No, it's not you. It's Halsey...She's-um, she's pregnant," he said quietly, very close to a whisper.

" Really? Isn't that great? Life can bring you so many things. Aren't you happy for her? She finally moved on from that Josh character and is starting a family," she smiled. But she just didn't know what was really going on. " Why aren't you smiling about it..? Oh God. No. Please don't tell me that....that i-it's-"

" No, it's not mine. It's Brendon's. But....Elizabeth....I don't want her to have kids with Brendon. Please. I don't want that for her. He's not the man for her, especially with how fragile she is after what Josh did."

" I don't think you should be worrying about her anymore. She's not your problem. You can support her, of course, but...don't try to be the father of the baby. Let Brendon handle everything for his half. Just focus on school and Rose. Halsey is not your concern anymore."

" Halsey has been my concern ever since I met her. You should don't understand again. She needs me more than anyone. You don't know how many times she has said that and really meant it. She's not playing with my feelings when she tells me that. She knows it's true because no matter what time it is or how bad everything in life is between us, she always comes to me. Goddammit, that should be my child! She needs me!" He yelled.

Z looked at him with her eyes wide. " W-What are you trying to say, Ryan? That you're still in love with her and need to automatically come to rescue even though she probably didn't even ask for help?"

" I love her, Elizabeth. More than anyone. For the longest time ever. No, she did not ask for my help. She only told me. But, I know she doesn't want to be with Brendon. She sounded so unhappy. She thinks her life is going to fall apart for some reason. I just want to show her that that's not going to happen just because a beautiful baby is on the way."

" You know, you really need to stop bing that woman's hero. She has convinced me that she can't handle herself. I don't really want you to be around her when you're in a relationship with anyone but her. She'll soon tear apart you and Rose indirectly."

" What are you? My mother?"

" Well, clearly, I have been your mother ever since you met me and moved into my old apartment. So stay away from Halsey if you want to continue seeing Rose. I just want you to finally settle down since that's what you've been wanting. To do that, you're going to have to focus on one woman - Rose. I know you might think this is unfair. But hear it from a girl's point of view. Seeing your boyfriend constantly save his ex from her life crashing down on her hurts because she's getting the same treatment that you are getting. That just shows you're not special. At least, that's how it makes us feel."

" I-I'm sorry, Elizabeth. I know I've been saving Halsey a lot lately even though I'm with Rose. I know how insecure she can be. I'll really try to stop. I'll only be there for Halsey if she really needs it. Not if she calls for a small favor. Has Rose been talking to you about all of this?" He was suspicious now. Z has been spending a lot of time without him whenever she's out of work. " Does she know that me and Halsey were getting very close again."

" It's not exactly like you're trying to hide it. Plus, Rose knew that you stayed in her apartment while she was there. She stopped by here and Halsey wasn't here. It was around night time. She already knew. But she's trying her hardest to trust you. I suggest to go clear things up with her right now. Dinner is on the table if you want."

" Do you want me to see her in person right now? She's home and I think it's bit too late to see her. Her parents are strict right? I can't see her this late."

Z looked at her watch. " Ryan, it's only 6:30. Call her first though. Head over there and explain everything."

He nodded. He ran upstairs to grab his shoes and jacket.

Halsey's POV

Brendon was cooking her something in the kitchen. She laid on her side, on his bed, while hugging her knees. She has been crying for hours. What would her manager say? He was very strict. But he's who made her popular. He's the one who really got her noticed. She wasn't ready for the feeling when she performed to go away forever. She loved that feeling.

It was lucky for Brendon. While Halsey is at home caring for the child, he can still perform and experience that feeling all the time. Life wasn't going in a positive direction for her. She wished she could just get rid of the child. Brendon wants to keep it. She doesn't. It's her choice, honestly. He can't force her to keep it.

She wanted to tell him so bad that she didn't want to raise the child while he's out performing and her missing her chances to perform herself. This was completely unplanned. She couldn't stop crying. The thing is, if she lets her parents raise the baby, it would be terrible. They always travel and Halsey would always want to see her child. But she's going to be a busy worker because of all these places she has to perform.

Next thing you know, she'll have to go on tour.