Colors

~Chapter 40~

Halsey's POV

Morning came.

When she woke, she felt arms around her. Her eyes fluttered open. She looked over her shoulder and saw a sleeping Josh. Her heart rate picked up. Then she remembered, she let him stay the night. She remembered everything that happened the night before.

She moved away from his grasp. She rolled off the bed and grabbed her phone. Missed calls from Brendon appeared on the screen. She sighed. She didn't know whether or not to call him. She hoped that he didn't think she was getting rid of the child without telling him. It would kill him. If she were in his position, she wouldn't know what to do, but she'd be doing both of them a favor.

She exited the room and dialed his number anyways.

" Where are you? You need to come home now. We need to talk about last night," he immediately said.

" I know we do...I really want to apologize for everything that has happened. I'll see you later or something. I have stuff to take care of," she said.

" If you mean getting rid of my child, don't even think about it. It's my choice too! That's my kid in there!" He yelled.

" It's my body! You did this to me! I'm not ready for a kid and I..I'm sorry Brendon. I can't keep this baby. I don't want it."

" That's not fair. This is not fair. I know we didn't mean for this to happen but I don't want you to get rid of my first child. Please...Halsey...I'm begging you. Please don't do this," she could hear him starting to cry.

" Please don't make me go through a pregnancy I didn't intend on having. And I thought you would understand! This is my body! Why do I have to carry a child I don't want?" She started crying too. " I have to go. I'm sorry."

" No, Hals-" She hung up and threw her phone against the wall. She sunk down to her knees. She cried into them. She didn't know what to do anymore with the kid, her career, her love life. It was all too much.

She heard the door open. She looked up and saw Josh giving her a worried look. He crouched down beside her. " What happened..?" He asked.

" Brendon is begging me to keep a child I don't want. I don't know what to do, Josh. I just..," she shrugged,"..I don't know how to not hurt anyone.

" No matter what happens in life, someone will always get hurt. It's something you can't prevent. In times like this, it's okay to think about yourself...to put yourself first. Remember what I told you last night. They can't force you into anything. Just like they can't force you into this pregnancy."

" But if I were in his position, I wouldn't want this to happen. Even worse, Josh, what if you were in his position? What if you got me pregnant and I wasn't ready? And I wanted to get rid of it?"

" I would understand. We would have more in the future anyways....Now that I think about that...Brendon is in love with you, right?" She nodded. " What if he's using this pregnancy to trap you? I honestly doubt that a young man like him would want to be a father this early-"

" This doesn't affect him! He doesn't have to give up his career for this. It'll be like a side job. I'm the one who has to make all the sacrifices. That's why it's not fair. I'm giving up everything while he's just gaining more. A loyal wife and kid."

" But if he's in love with you, wouldn't he do anything to keep you?"

She tucked her hair behind her ears and sighed. " I..I should just talk to him about this. I want to be fair for at least one thing. I..uh..I need to go." She got up and went back into her room to change.