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Chapter 33

Ryan's POV

Ryan soon landed back in New York. His plan was to surprise Rose at her house. He didn't want to call Z for a ride because he didn't really want to deal with her yet. He called a cab and went to Rose's house. Rose's mother let him in. He snuck up to her room. He saw her sleeping in her bed peacefully. He went on the other side of the bed and sat down close to her.

He leaned down to kiss her forehead. " I missed you so much, Rosie," he whispered, trying not to wake her up. He set his bag down on the side of her bed. He removed his jacket and shoes. He went under the covers with her handheld her as she slept. He was hoping that she'd wake up happily in his arms.

Halsey's POV

Her manager now knew that she was pregnant. She was getting ready to get yelled at or fired from the music business. Brendon dropped her off at her apartment. She went to her bedroom and cried on the bed. Her life was going downhill. She wished her life wasn't. She was really getting somewhere in life. Then, she had to get pregnant.

She heard someone unlocking the door. Who could it be? Brendon didn't have an extra key. He's not allowed to because of how much he annoys her. She wanted this place to be her getaway. No one has extra keys to this apartment. She wiped her remaining tears and went outside to see who it was.

" What are you doing here, Josh?" She asked him, making him jump a little. " I thought you already gave back your extra key."

" I saw you at your interview today. I was watching TV and I saw you. You told everyone that we were over. You didn't tell me t-that you were pregnant," he said, sounding guilty. " I wish it was my baby too, babe. Everything would be so much easier."

" Yeah, but it's not. There's someone actually there for me who never cheated on me in the time he has dated me. Even senior year. He was the only loyal man I've been with. It's sad knowing that! Thank God, he happens to be the father of this baby."

" That should've been mine. We should've been engaged first! We'd get married, then we'd be having that baby. Me and Tyler would still be in Twenty One Pilots. Jenna and I would still be childhood friends. All of our lives wouldn't be falling apart!" Josh yelled. He fell to his knees. " I fucked up all of our lives. If it weren't for me, you wouldn't have been pregnant at an early age."

Halsey crouched down. " It's not your fault. I did this to myself. If I didn't continue to be with Brendon after you left me, this wouldn't have happened."

" Everything is going to be okay. At least, you're in good hands now. I'm a terrible boyfriend. I shouldn't have done what I did. I know you'll never forgive me. I just need to be with you again. I really need you. You are my only source of happiness."

" We can't get back together anymore. This," she pointed at her baby bump,"..is the reason why we can't get back together. I don't want the baby to be away from its biological father. I'm-I'm going to marry Brendon when my parents come to New York."

" I wish you would've married me, but you couldn't because I'm an idiot," he sighed. " I'm sorry again, Halsey. By the way, I didn't come here expecting you. I've been coming back every now and then. You're never here when I do come back. I thought you had already moved in with Brendon."

" No. I didn't. At least, not yet. I'm just staying with him a lot. This apartment just reminds me of you too much. I wish it didn't, but we got this apartment together. I can't look at it without thinking of you."

" Me too. I come back here to feel like you are still with me. To know that I am in love with you."

" I wish I could believe that. For some reason, I don't. I believed that since you cheated on me, you completely did stop loving me. I'm done trying to think of you anymore, Josh. I need to move on. I-I'm going to move out of this building."

" N-No. Please don't. At least, not yet. Don't take all of your stuff. Halsey...I really want to have some part of you still. This is where we used to work together on music. I want to come back here and still be able to think that we could do that in the future."

" But we can't....You and Tyler aren't friends anymore. Twenty One Pilots is over like you said. There's no more music for you. Brendon already has a music studio at his house. I can move all of my stuff there. If you want, you can have this apartment. I just won't pay for it anymore."

" God..I wish I didn't mess up this bad. I want you to live here still. I just can't help coming back. I've lived here for so long and with you. I can't get over you..I'm such a wreck."

" How do you think I feel?" Halsey chuckled. " Everything was going so well and turns out my life is now going downhill. I thought I could do okay without you. Then, Brendon ended up getting me pregnant. My career is on the line. They might get rid of me because I'm a mother."

" But you're not a single mother. Be happy-"

" Who's going to take care of my baby while me and Brendon are both touring?! I want to watch my baby grow. I want to hear my baby's first words. I want to see my baby walk for the first time. I'm limited because I'm a singer! If anything, it's gonna be like those movies where the kid isn't close to the parents at all because we were never around."

" Or it could be like a movie where the parent takes the kid wherever they go while performing. Have someone care for him or her while you're performing. They'll give you time off. You're getting big. Why would they drop you now?"

She shrugged. " I'm still upset. I didn't even want this baby. At least, I didn't want one right now. I don't even want to marry Brendon that much! My whole life getting thrown down the drain because I screwed up."

" Baby, if I didn't screw up, we'd still be together and there wouldn't be anything holding you back. If you want to blame someone, blame me. I'm sorry."

Ryan's POV

He felt Rose move under his arms. He smiled and opened his eyes. He kissed the top of her head. She looked up and saw his face. She quickly rolled on top of him and started kissing him all over his face. He laughed as she did so. 

" I missed you so much!" She said in between kisses.

" I missed you too baby," he chuckled as she kissed him. She sat up and stopped. He sat up with her. He cupped her face and pulled her into a passionate kiss. Slow and soft. She wrapped her arms around his neck as they kissed. She pulled away and leaned her forehead on his. " I really fucking missed you. You don't even understand."

" I think I understand. Gosh, I'm so happy you're back. I finally get to hug you and kiss you whenever! So," she moved away to see his face,"..what do you wanna do today?"

" I have no idea. We can just stay here and cuddle. I have bad jet lag. Plus, holding you the whole time while drifting off to sleep is one of my favorite things to do. I love you, Rose."

" I love you too. Now, before we cuddle the whole day, do you wanna get something to eat first?"

" Later. I'm still kind of sleepy."

" Did you come here as soon as you got back?" She chuckled.

" Mmhmm."

" Did you even tell Z you were back?"

" We're not even on sleeping ter- I mean speaking terms," he said tiredly.

" Okay, sleepy baby."

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a/n: might not write that much. having personal problems. i'll try to update as much as i can.

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