Shawn Mendes Imagines [COMPLETED]

The Past Revealed [TRIGGER: Abuse/Suicide]

Your POV

You and Shawn were having an argument about false rumours fans have been starting about cheating on each other. Ever since you became his girlfriend, a majority of the fans supported you two. But of course, there was always the jealous minority of girls who detest you regardless. The argument has already been going on for over 30 minutes, and it doesn't seem to be getting better.

"How many times do I have to tell you I DID NOT CHEAT ON YOU!"  You screamed at him, your throat becoming sore from all the constant yelling.

"This photo clearly shows you were kissing Cameron!" Shawn defends and grabs his phone, showing you a photoshopped picture of you and Cameron Dallas snogging (A/N Yes I'm English). 

"Do I have to say it AGAIN?!" You said, putting emphasis on the last part.

"No! Cause I'm gonna make sure this never happens again!" He screams.

"What's that supposed to m---" But before you could continue, he punched your jaw. It didn't break, but blood was coming out. It made a cut. You ran away, trying to avoid him but he's quicker than you.

"I'm not done with you yet, slut!" He yanks you back and hits both of your cheeks. You instantly remember your past when he did this. Before you and Shawn ended up together, some drunk alcoholic grabbed you suddenly and abused you. He attempted to rape you as well and almost ended up being successful, but your screams caught the attention of a cop. Since then, you forgot about it, but Shawn's violence right now is starting to remind you again.

"P-please, don't.." You were trembling on the ground now, too weak to fight him back. But Shawn didn't care. He picked you up and shoved you towards one end of the room. 

"Bitch, you're not my mom!" He shouts, getting a hockey stick from his pile of stuff and coming back to you. You knew what he was going to do next.

"N-no..." Your voice was now a whisper and were almost about to have a panic attack. He forms an evil grin on his face. His eyes were dark and you shut your eyes. You never want to see him like that again.

"OPEN YOUR F*CKING EYES!" He instructed rudely, which you did. Shawn has evil face was still formed. Your eyes went wide and shut again.

"Now, this will teach you not to cheat on me again!" He raises the hockey stick, but as if on cue, you began to breathe abnormally. This made Shawn soften up. He dropped the stick and crouched down to your level. But you were so scared of him, you tried to get up, but the pain was too much to handle.

"Baby? Shh no, no. Please..." He whispers, changing his mood from wild to tame. But you flinch every time he tries to touch you. 

You were having a horrible panic attack now. Shawn had never seen this happen to you before, but you always had these after what happened in the past. Blood was still coming out of your jaw, but it wasn't much anymore. 

"Breathe with me. Follow what I do." He states, and you did do what he said. Soon after, your breathing went back to normal. 

"Sweetheart, I-I..." He reaches out for your cheek, but you screamed and flinched. You hid your face in your hands. Shawn began to realise how much pain he caused you. Tears began to water around his eyes. 

"No..no... babe, I'm sorry..." He stutters, not knowing what to do. You continued laying on the floor with hiccups while breathing, but you knew that he needed to find out about your past. About 10 minutes after being silent, you were ready to let him know.

"Shawn, can I tell you something?" You whispered.

"Of course, anything you wanna say. I'm here to listen." He places his hand on yours gently and you slowly told him about your past. All of a sudden, he breaks down after you tell him everything.

"Oh, sweetheart..." He whimpers, covering his face in his hands. You can hear his sobs come out, which made your heart break. You started to cry as well. He pulls you in for a hug and nuzzles his face into your neck. You can feel his never-ending tears fall onto your shirt. You run your fingers through his hair and rub his back to comfort him.

"I'm so sorry. I hurt you and now you're scared of me..." He says almost inaudibly. 

"I was worried you would do the same thing as what happened in the past." You admitted, the tears now falling uncontrollably. 

"Baby, I just wanna let you know if at any time you feel that I'm hurting you, just let me know. I don't want you to go through what happened earlier ever again. I was just so mad and I..I..." He stops as more sobs escape his mouth. 

"I..I'm so sorry..." He says softly and his sobs turns to cries.

"Aw, Shawn. Please don't cry. I know you did it because you love me." You say, he shakes his head no.

"I'll never forgive myself for doing what I did. I just wanna know if you could forgive me. Because I promise you that if you give me another chance, I swear I'll never have to make you go through this again. You mean the entire world to me. And I don't wanna have to let it all go tonight. If you go, my life will fall apart. I could never find someone who is just as sweet as you are. Please, babygirl. One more chance, just so I could prove myself I'll be someone better. Please..." He says and pulls you in a bit closer to him. More tears were about to fall from his eyes.

You were shocked at his little speech, it was more than enough for you to forgive him. At the same time though, you were wishing he would prove it a lot harder that he'll be someone better.

"Shawn, of course I'll give you one more chance. But it will be the last one. Please though, don't ever put me through that again." You state, he nods and kisses your neck.

"Honey, thank you so much. I promise I'll be better." He says and keeps his arms wrapped around you. His tears fell, but they were tears of joy. He's glad you forgave him, as he would never do it himself after all that's happened to you.

"Shawn?" You ask.

"Yes, love?"

"Clean me up, please?" You stated.

"Of course, love. Of course." He says and you two went to the kitchen to get stuff to cover up your cuts and bruises.

"One more thing." You told him.

"Anything, honey. Tell me." 

"I love you." You said.

"Aw, I love you too." He replied, kissing your forehead.