Anxiety

Him

I'm 75 kg now.

McDonalds isn't even worth it anymore. It tastes like shit and it makes me feel like shit. Food in general makes me feel like shit. Unless it's smoothies, eggs, or sallads. I like chicken too. Not the fried one though. 

It's wednesday. And wednesdays are special since I don't have to go to school. I could be in school right now and study but no. I'm home. In the couch. Just chilling. Watching some tv. Some disney show with Selena Gomez. I don't like her. But I'm still going to watch it with mute on. One Direction is playing in the background. 

Much better. 

I've never in my life craved going out for a run more than I am right now. 

I wanna put my sneakers on and just....

...go. 

Baby say yeah, yeah. 

I have big plans ahead of me. I'm already kind of good friends with this boy in my class. But he's good friends with all the girls. It's not like I'm interested in him, absolutely not.

Everytime we touch, you get this kind of rush.

I just want to get to know him better. There's also someone else  I want to get to know better. I know his first name. And what he looks like. But that's all. 

He seems perfect to me. I don't know the guy but I can't take my eyes off of him. It's weird. I haven't been crushing on anyone in a while. 

Yes, I'm serious. 

I'm kind of glad he doesn't know I exist.

Maybe if I lost some more weight he would notice me. Maybe he'd want to be my friend. I don't know.

But it's worth a try.