Anxiety

Schedule

I've been typing for a while but nothing I type is good enough. I usually don't struggle with this, mainly because I don't care. But for some reason, today I do. 

Today I made myself a schedule. I got a new job which means that I now have two, and with school included I'm going to be pretty busy. I decided to go to the gym everyday after school/work and have my rest days on the weekends. Let's be real, I'm not going to the gym on the weekends, I'm too lazy for that. But 5 days a week isn't bad at all, it's actually pretty good. 

I considered weighing myself everyday but I want quick results and I know that I'm going to feel really shitty if I don't lose weight everyday and it's not going to feel like it's worth it. 

I'm leaving town to see my best friend in 19 days, so that means I have 17 days to get in shape (somehow). I'll keep you guys updated everyday but I'm not going to give you numbers on anything. I'll just tell you what I did at the gym, if I went of course. The reason as to why I'm not starting right away is simply because I'm having a night in tomorrow with my best friend. That's going to be my last crappy-food-day in a while I believe. I will also let you know if I lost any weight, and in that case, how much. 

I'm going to spend a few days with her, and if I know us we're probably going to be eating. 

A lot. 

When I'm home again I have about a month to get in even better shape. Hopefully I won't give up this time. 

I'm hoping to have lost at least half of the weight that I want to lose by then. I just really want this summer to NOT be about my weight. I want it off.