Anxiety

Well this was random

Okay so there are a few things that I really need to get off my chest. 

First of all, food. 

Wow. 

Food matters so much and food is so very important for us. 

Lately I've been more strict when it comes to the food that I eat. I've skipped eating meat for a while, which hasn't really changed my life in any drastic way. I've just felt a whole lot better since there are alternatives that are very healthy and still taste good. 

Today I had fried food for the first time in the longest while. I was kind of craving it, but I'm gonna have to be honest here. It didn't taste like I remembered it to taste. It was greasy and sticky and I was so full after so little food. I managed to fill my stomach with both fries and chicken nuggets, and on my way home I almost fell asleep on the bus because of lack of energy. 

Right after I had eaten I was feeling more full than I had in a while, and I was high on sugar. That's a great feeling but it didn't last for long at all. I ended up going home, and when I did I took a nap for at least one hour. I literally couldn't manage to keep my eyes open! 

When I woke up I felt sick, not as full as earlier, but I felt exhausted. I went to the bathroom which made me feel a little bit better. Throughout the rest of the day I've been trying to eat as much as possible to kind of get rid of the fried food, and I'm also very thirsty. I'm having a head ache that's literally killing me and I'm writing an essay that's due tonight. 

What I'm trying to say here is that even though you're working hard for visible results, like losing weight or looking more tones (which I have) it all starts on the inside. I can't stand greasy or fried food anymore, and I definitely enjoy my salads more now than I did back a few months ago. Running the same track isn't that hard anymore, and not eating as much isn't bothering me anymore. 

This took me some time to realize, but my inner health is as important as the rest of my health. I'm striving to look good for summer, I really am, and I'm afraid I might not get there in time. I'm proud of the changes I have made and I hope to make even more progress throughout the rest of the year.

I'm not going to say I've lost or gained weight, because I honestly haven't stepped on the scale in a while. I am finally pleased and I have finally found the right method for me, after so many years! 

When it comes to the rest of my life, I'm kind of confused. I can't really say that things are going my way but I hope everything's gonna be alright.