I guess

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I've been thinking about changes a lot lately. And I think I've changed a lot, I mean, I just haven't realised it yet. 

I'm in this weird place trying to figure out life and in the meanwhile I've actually changed. 

I hope it's for the better, I really do. 

Okay, I'm gonna be honest...

Within 24h I've been told that I'm "really hot", I've made a few guy friends and I've also been asked if I want to be friends with benefits.. How do I react to that?

I don't know.

Oh and I've also been ignored by a friend. I bet she thinks she's so much better than me, that she doesn't need me.

To be completely honest, I don't need her at all in my life. She lives super far away from me and I actually don't mind. 

She's turning into something else and only for the worse. 

I'm glad I'm making new friends, so that I can easily just not think about her. She doesn't deserve me. 

Oh I almost forgot;

Day 3: Your views on drugs and alcohol.

I was served a drink yesterday by friends of my family. It said "non-alcohol" but it was maybe 0.5% or something like that. 

The anxiety within almost killed me. I felt so bad for drinking that, and I actually never want to drink ever again. 

I am never going to use drugs and hopefully never drink either. 

I hate drugs and alochol. 

I really do. 

They turn good people into bad people and sad people into happy people. 

I don't know why or how but it makes me scared. 

Drugs and alcohol fuck shit up.. 

I guess. 

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