Anxiety

He's back

He's back.

It's been almost a year.

But he's back.

I missed him for a while. But I got over him. 

We used to talk every day, every night, but he stopped. I kept asking myself what I had done wrong. It took me some time to realize that he was only playing me. 

But he's back now. And it's been a while. And he's confusing me. So I just asked him. I just asked him how he felt for me. 

All he truly wants is to be good to me. And now, after almost a year, he is. It's so easy to open up for him. And I'm so glad I don't have to be nervous around him. 

Around him.

About that.  

He lives miles and miles away from me. 

Actually, he lives in another country. 

But that doesn't stop him from being my friend. 

When I think about it, I did miss him. 

Actually, I missed him a lot. 

Maybe not every day and every night, but I still missed him. 

And now, I miss him too. Because he's so far away from me. 

It's so clear to me now that he's not all that I need. But in some freaky way, I still need him in my life. I need him to be there for me, just like he used to be. 

I've missed him so much and I can't believe he's finally back. 

After almost a year